love story part 3...

I know what I want…I wanted to be with him…n so I fight…

I let him choose between me n the other girl…

I let him talked to the other girl…

I don’t wanna lose him…

N most important is – I don’t want my relationship to be blossom from someone else’s happiness…

Since I wanted to be with him – do I have a choice??

I talked to him n asked him what do he want??...

I am sure that the other girl also fights for her love…but it’s nothing compare to what he might decide…

So im not thinking more on the other girl…bcoz I let him to choose…

Hours later…

I am really, really, really sorry to the other girl…

Coz he chose me…

U knows how happy I am when he finally chose me??? It feels just like heaven…

But 7 months later…I can’t dry up my tears…

# What comes next??? I’ll continue it on my next post…

# when u love someone, all u can think of is he/she, right??...when u sleep u’ll think of him/her…when u wakes up, u’ll think of him/her…u went to class with him/her…u went to cinema with him/her…u wanna eat with him…all u do is to be with him/her 24/7…when there is an obstacle, u’ll automatically find a solution and fight…u let ur love decide...if u face with this kind of situation, then don’t confront the other girl…why?? bcoz it shows ur weakness n u let yourself lose while the other girl wins…all u have to do is stay calm and don’t give too much pressure on ur man while he’s doing his work – his decision making part is more important than to know who is the other girl…so do remember y’all, stay calm, don’t be pushy n respect your other half…

source: lelove

love story part 2....

Our first month anniversary…he gave me a present...

He told me that he has another girlfriend…a 1.5 yrs old relationship…

A very unthinkable n yet a nice present, right???...

I asked him “why u didn’t tell me on the first place??? I would not be with you if u tells me about this earlier….”

And he said “I love you…I don’t wanna lose you…

I replied “u love me…u don’t wanna lose me…u love her…n u also don’t wanna lose her, right??”

And he simply said “yes…”

At that time, im not sure what im gonna do…I feel like crying but have no tears…

I regretted the moment I said I will be his friend…coz he’s not a friend I wish I have…

I regretted the moment we arrange the first meeting…coz it makes me hates the place…

I regretted the moment I said I like him…coz it’s so damn embarrassed…

I regretted the moment I texted or said I love him…coz he don’t deserve that…

But…I am not and will not regret the time I spent with him…

Bcoz I like the way I feel whenever im with him…

So what did I do next???

I fight….I fight for my love….I fight for me…and I fight for us…

This is so damn hard for me to handle…but I have to…he’s my boyfriend n I love him…

N I wondered if I ever succeed….

# To be continued…

# When u encounter with this kind of situation in your relationship, u have to ask yourself…what do you want???...what do you want???...what do you want???...if u want to be with him, then u have to fight…fight until u have him…fight until u succeed…if u want to be with him but u didn’t have the guts to fight, then u have to question yourself if u love him or not???...

love story part 1....

Let me tell u a secret about me…..

Less than two years ago, a man texted me….”will u b my friend?”….n I replied “yeah, sure, no prob…”…

He texted me…I texted him back…he called me…I called him back…one day, we arranged a meeting….n we met…

He’s handsome…a murut + Chinese guy…taller than me…n also a student…

Then, 1 day, I told him that I like him… (n I forgot what else did I said to him that night…huhu)…

Im not really a type of girl who will be the first to say “I like you” to a man…but I did…bcoz i like him…at first I was shy…I was afraid that he might not have the same feeling with mine…n I was way too scared of rejection…

He took a few minutes to give me his response…

I thought that his silence means denial…

But then, he said he likes me too…

N from that day onwards…we r officially a couple…

# for those who’s still aching by liking someone and not doing anything about it…go tell them, forget your fear, n go fall in love…u have to push yourself…worst thing can happen when u tell but an amazing thing will also happen when you tell…if he or she doesn’t feel the same way then don’t be worry…at least u feel damn awesome about telling he or she how special they are to you…n it will be amazing if everything goes well…n one thing to remember though, everybody hurts someday, the feeling by the thought of losing he or she is as awful as not having he or she at all…so, go tell them!!!!! Im crossing my fingers for you…

# my story n advice will be continue on my coming post….so see y’all later….

what once is now.......by mastin kipp

What once was broken, is now made whole.

It didn’t cost a thing, no need to pay the toll.

Congratulations to the energetic, for living from their soul.

If it wasn’t for them, we’d just stay here and get old.

What once was one, is now made into two.

It used to be broken, but has been made new.

Humble thanks for the inspiration, to see the bird’s eye view.

Without you, Father, we’d never know what to do.

What once was a burden, is now turned into gold.

Don’t worry one bit, no matter what you’ve been told.

Peace and forgiveness, will break you out of the mold.

To let go of the past, and from now on be bold.

What once was a question, is now a solution.

What starts as a problem, turns into revolution.

By the young and the wise, to promote evolution.

Always pushing us forward, to find resolution.

What once was hidden, is now brought into the light.

It’s not as scary, as you think that it might.

Newfound recognition for, this new day’s night.

We’ll fall asleep knowing, that everything’s all right.

a brother....i wished i had...

dear diary,

i've known someone...

n met him...

he's older than me....

n we're friends...

@ 1st i kinda like him...

but when we actually met, 

i felt like he's a brother to me...

not that im not like him after we met...

i still like him...n even more when i felt that,

he's a brother whom i wished i had...

im the youngest in my family...

7 siblings altogether....n i have 6 sisters...

i can get all the advice i want from my sisters...

but, since my friend n i talked about family...

n i asked him a few questions....

n some of it i did asked my sisters...

brother-ly n sister-ly advice r totally different...

i know he wasnt my biological brother...

but his advice was based on his experiences...

uuuuuu i forgot, the questions mainly bout relationship, in general...

thus, it opens me up...

why???

let it be my secret....hehe

*hint: mars and venus r different...

btw...i love my sisters....

manukan.....

manukan jetty + its sandy beach

gaya from manukan

im a viewer who's trying to take photo...

but in the end...

im not artistic enough...

but its ok...

sooner or later, i'll be better from yesterday...

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nz....with love...

one day my sis asked me "u wanna join us to nz, since hasnal (her hubby) cant join?"

me: "OK!!!....but when???"

my sis: 4th of may...

me: shit, i have exam la...

...

2 weeks later....

im in Christchurch...

exam...

(wink...wink) 

let it be my dirty little secret...

it was my 1st time in nz...

minutes b4 we land, hills n lil white dots r everywhere...

stunning...

some part of d city - ruined after series of earthquake...

yellow tapes - here n there...

but still beautiful...

days gone by...

the most famous words that came out of me is 'WOW'...n "SHIT"

shit???

why on earth am i saying it???

well, the shit part is i had to spend my beautiful days in nz with....

a lass which i dislike...

she's pretty, she's nice...

but...

she made millions of bad decisions,

she cant read map, whenever i wanna help with the direction, 

she just wont listen..

n we ended up lost...lost....lost...n lost....

im so damn pissed, 

but i have to show some respect to her since she is older than me...

thus, i'd be extra patience...

but hell-to-the-no...

i argued...i just cant stand let my sister drive back n forth, back n forth just to c the road signs...

besides, time is precious n i dont wanna waste it...

i wish i can say sorry to her...

among us 3, im d youngest, n im the 1 who lose temper...wwhhhoooppssss....

enough of the shit part, n now the wow part...hehe

u knew it already...

the view is superbly beautiful...

the people are nice...

the food is good...

the weather is.....hhhhhmmmm.......cold....colder....colder....but not yet coldest...hehe

cheers!!!!

otw to christchurch...

lake tekapo

museum (i guess...)

lake tekapo...

church of the good 

shepherd

me sis n i...hehe

otw to milford sound

mirror lake

lake te anau

somewhere....pic was taken seconds b4 a car arrived...snap n rrruuuunnnn...