exam.....................the end.........

exam da hbis...

should i say more??

yeah....

its freedom...

and now im officially on holiday for about 7 weeks...and yeah, i did make some plans...risky plans...and yet i will pursue it (no matter what...heheh)....

all i can think is - EUROPE.....

why europe??? hhhmmmm i dont know...hehe just wait and see....

ye....exam....di awl thun...

exam di awal tahun...damn...aku x suka la...aku masih dalam mood cuti2 new year...huhu...

hakikatnya, aku kena la jua terima...if U aku yang punya sure aku rombak ikut suka hati aku...

study week?? 23 dec 2011 - 2 jan 2012...tym ni la kebaboom sana kebaboom sini...party sana party sini...

aku??

sure la aku di Chamber of Secret aku...dalam bilik...study...lagu kena full blast coz tidak mahu terganggu suara2 luar yang memanggil "afen, main wayang da...." @ "afen, turun la ko....." @ "afen, tia payah la ko study lagi tu ko turun dlu ba teman kami d bawah..."......

hp?? silent mode...24/7...tia mau kena ganggu konon...ceh hipokrit kan...padahal, asal berlampu ja pi tengok ni...hahaha...ish tidak la aku macam tu...aku tapuk ba bawah bantal...hahaha lol...

25dec n 1jan aku cuti study...x mau study langsung...coz aku mau enjoy the day...actually 24dec and 31dec pun aku cuti half day....

then, exam week pun sampai...macam mana bencinya aku dengan exam week ni, dia datang la jua ba...kemarin (5jan) 1st paper aku....hr ni pla, 2nd paper...esok nada...thank god...tapi sambung lagi next week..rabu, khamis and jumaat...ye ye...after jumat aku freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedom....

banyak student akan cakap "alamak matilah, aku belum study lagi.....".....jan la kamu percaya ni...dorang la orang2 yang paling lama study tu.....so mengaku ja ba if study kn...hehehe...

apa2 pun, aku ni singgah sekejap ja...coz cinema tu da memanggil aku...afen...afen....afen...macam taik ni...

bye, geng...

My New Year's Resolution(s)....hahaha azam la mengkali kan...:)

here goes the truth - No Resolution is better than have 1.....

i dont know how many of u will agree with this LOL statement...but me, i am 200% agree with it...

why??????

mai i crite k...

i admit, i had my own new year's resolutions...i wrote it down...and i even pasted it on my bedroom wall...12 months later, i realized that i totally forgot all about it...when i read it back, damn i cant stop laughing...hahaha...back in 2009, one of my new year's resolution was to buy three piggy banks and fill it with coins within a year...i did bought three transparent piggy banks (purple red and pink)...and now 2012, after 3 beautiful years passed by, i looked back to my new year's resolutions wall, and looked at my three piggy banks...one and a half full...omg....1.5 within 3 years afen?? i must be joking right?? damn, i dont know what happened to me...i lost my new year's spirit...sigh...

i wish i can tell you my collections of new year's resolutions...in which mostly unfulfilled...hahhaha...but im pretty damn shy...lol...

but i came up with a conclusion...

we usually made new year's resolutions about things that we like to do/own but ended up doing nothing...for example, the piggy banks...after 3 years, i still didnt fulfilled my 2009 resolution...(what a shame)...so why dont we/i made a crazy insane 2012 resolutions, right??

your simple mimple resolutions cant be fulfilled by you or us because it was tooooo damn easy to achieve while we are toooooo damn lazy to make it true...so why not we or i try the crazy insane resolution plan??

try ja la kan, saya buat tp jd @ x, i dont care, coz sy tau its crazy insane resolution...just for fun then hehe...tp if jd la kn i will be the luckiest girl in the world...hahhahaha...

my crazy insane 2012 resolutions are:

1) sing Christina Perry - A Thousand Years to a guy i love...
"i have died everyday waiting for you, darling dont be afraid i have loved you, for a thousand years, i love you for a thousand more....and all along i believe i would find you, time has brought your heart to me, i have loved you for a thousand years, i love you for a thousand more..."
(percentage of impossibility = 99.9%)

2) around the world in 199 days...
hahah percentage of impossibility = 20000000000000%

3) getting serious with a guy...
hhhhhmmmm percentage of impossibility = 90%

4) go to swi
percentage of impossibility = 100%...i could find a time for it...

5) hehehe i know this one is not crazy...but i want to buy another 3 piggy banks and fill it with coins within this year...so, overall i have 4.5 piggy banks to feed...percentage of impossibility = 150% since 1.5 = 3 years, then 4.5 = 9 years...damn...totally impossible...

so, whatever the resolutions are whether its crazy or simple, make it work (dedicated to me...)...even if its take a thousand years to achieve...haha...

2009 if skrg 2012 knfm da penuh wall tu...

yeah....its a new year...huh?? siram air?

when the clock strikes 12am every 1st Jan, everybody will shout "Happy New Year"... but not my family...

well, we have this unique tradition since ages ago...that is - MAIN AIR....well, it is for kids only...the adults?? for parents - waiting for their kids...while me?? apa lagi tukang siram loooo.....hehe

if anak buah da basah, aku yang jadi tukang siram ni memang sure la basah jua...tapi sikit je la...

so last nite, as every other new year, this tradition is a must...and we did it again...

we're living in a housing area...with neighbours around...and so, with our new-year-must-do, and with the huge laughs from the parents and me, plus the shouting (yeah-yeah-ing....auw-auw-ing) from my nieces and nephews, we created a massive disharmony choir in the neighbourhood...

do we care what others might think?? hell-2-d-no...its new year, remember?? hehe...

a year had passed since we celebrated the coming of 2011...and its now a day passed of new year's day...we have hundreds more days to face, thousands of things to do, and millions of possibilities ahead before we celebrate the coming of 2013...

i sincerely hope that everything in between u (and me) and the next new year, will be fabulous...and as my friend said "life without problem is boring..", so enjoy your problem, and do remember that problem solve someday...

p/s Happy New Year, reader...ooohhh btw, can u count how many times i used the word so?? seems like, i have vocab problem..hhhmmm i have to study new words then...

ciao,

with love,
afenefa

my 24th christmas...

i am 23 yrs old...n yesterday was my 24th Christmas...

i had experienced 24 Christmases so far...some of it i have no memories...while some i had a few memories but mixed up with other christmas, and fresh memories like yesterday's christmas and last year's christmas...

yesterday - i cant believe that it was my 24th christmas...im not sure why suddenly i counted how many christmases i had...

and the most scary question was - is this christmas will be my last christmas??

for sure, i have no answer for that...

and for sure, i hope that this is not my last christmas on earth...

honestly, i was picturing how my family will be without me...i became an observer yesterday...i observed my whole family yesterday on how they handle our christmas...bravo bravo...they were so damn good...hehe...even without me they will rock the day...

this is not suicidal...haha...and i am not dying...

i just thought that if i further my study away...i will have no chance whatsoever to celebrate christmas with my lovely family...only if i have money to buy return flight tickets...hehe

i dont know what my 25th christmas will be..i will be glad, if i have the chance to celebrate it with my whole family...but i will be insanely glad, if i have the chance to celebrate christmas with or without my family...that represent me alive...hehe

its another year ahead...and its already a day passed...Merry Christmas, Reader...

sincerely,
afen...

p/s: hows ur nth christmas?? is it great?? is it awesome?? omg fabulous?? U Rawk!! hehe

aku mc ska dia....

td chat dgn besfren...dia tanya "fen, pena ka ko rsa ko x mampu mau bckp bla bdepan dgn llki yg ko ska?? pena ka ko rsa ko ska tp ko x mampu mau ckp?? pena ka ko rsa dri ko hnya mampu melihat??"

dlm hati aku x mau jwb...sbb solan2 dia sume yg jiwang2...n aku waktu tu not in jiwang mode...if aku jwb pena sure la dia akn tnya lbh...if aku x jwb aku rsa kesian pla dgn dia...da la kmi ni jarang chat coz both busy like hell...once chat bgni pla solan dia...aduh....nazak....mati la...

so.....

aku pun jwb la..."pena...smpi skrg..."

nsib ko la fen...huhu...coz dia pun tnya lbh2...n dia pun mluahkn prasaan dia...kesian aku dgn dia...

hehe aku pun pena la jua mcm tu tp x la parah mcm kwn ku ni...ala besa la...crush...secret admire...normal kn...

pengakuan terhebat hjg thun ni - aku mc ska dia.....

tp, aku hnya ska dia sbgai kwn...aku rindu msa kmi bkwn dlu...skrg pun kmi still bkwn tp sejuk sdh...ada la tu  hal yg jd...myesal pun x gna...

i was in a rush ba back then...skit lg ni...so our time that we spent together not fabulous as our dream...i had planned something for him...a surprise actually, but ended up with my friends...haha...but the 31hrs that we spent totally rock my memory box..i dun knw what my future will be...but it was my first 31hrs with him n i dun wan to lie that i do hope that the hrs increase to more days, more weeks, more months n even more years...n i do wan to see more of him...------->> but it was back then...

now....------->> i am free from any temps i encountered  - to chat, to view, etc...

in between ---->> i loosen the feeling bit by bit everyday...but keep the memory fresh...

so, dear bestie, i understand ur feeling, i was in ur position months ago...im sure it will be hard for u...but trust me, u can...just let the feelings go by controlling yourself day by day...if he is yours to keep, then he will come to u 1 day....i am here for u, just talk to me or anyone else if the urge to drink his words from chatbox is killing  u...so dear friend, cheers...love u...:)

huh rakyat sabah tertindas???

bru2 ni sy fly p kl...teman my sis blajar kek...pavlova damn sedap...parent ku yg x suka heavy cakes pun blh tsuka ni kek ah...mmg damn la sedapnya...p la kmu try ah...:)

so msa kmi ni touchdown kk...ikt air asia so kna bratur gila pjg la utk p cek ic/passport sgala...ada sorg llki ni...dia melayu dr smenanjung...

dia x sabar mau kluar, aku pun x sbar mau kluar mau mkn kek yg kmi simpan d cargo...

dijadikan crita...blh2 dia ckp...

llki: "byknya org smenanjung dtg sbh...tp kesian rakyatnya tertindas...x ramai dtg kl..."

kta x ramai dtg kl maksudnya kta tertindas ka??

aku dtg kl...wpn utk 4D3N...tertindas ka aku??

aku yg xtau @ llki tu bangang??