Here's my 2012...

it is the 5th day of 2013...i am sure other bloggers posted their 2012 exactly on new year's day...but i took 5 days to actually log in to my blog...

i owned no diary...i am not sure enough when it happened so i just write here the most memorable days last year...

January -->> my ex-boyfriend and i are really close...i sometimes asked him if we can still be together...but as expected, his answer is no...but in January, i found out that he is still cheating on me even tho we're still friends...so, that day onward, i promised to myself that he is my ex and he is still my best-friend (when i wrote this)... 

February -->> nothing much happened...i just spent my time at home with family before entering my last semester...

March -->> hectic student life

April -->> still hectic student life

May -->> this is the most memorable month of the year...it is when i known a guy, met a guy, fell in love with a guy, be with him and still going strong till now...hopefully till death do us part, amen...

June -->> exam, exam, exam...

July -->> jobless...

August -->> jobless...stayed home with family...and celebrated my boyfriend's birthday somewhere in Sabah hehe...oh and not forget, meet the parents...my boyfriend's parents in tenom...for the 1st time...

September -->> still jobless...mostly stayed home with family, celebrated my birthday with my boyfriend and my family in two separated parties...

October -->> pretty much the same with the 3 months above...and started to think to have a job next year...for the time being, i just wanted to rest from all the student's years i spent..

November -->> counting for christmas and christmas present...

December -->> pre-christmas party, attended wedding, christmas day, and counting for new year...

so, that's my year...my boring year...i spent a lot of my time at home...doing nothing...so in this year, i want to do something for myself...get a job, engagement (maybe) hehe...

i look forward to my coming days, weeks, months this year...i wish for the best, and if i encounter the worst, i will face it to pass it...and for my family, i wish for their health, for my love, i wish for the love to be strong and stable...

huh ko tgk porn ka?? yikes jan kantoi ba...

d metro ada news pasal teenagers addicted to phone porn stories...then, ada lg news psl malaysian couple posted their nude photos + intimate vids in their blog...so, org sekeliling bhabis la ni bckap psl remaja zaman sekarg + mengaitkan nama negara...

besanya, org yg ckp "budak zaman sekarang" ni maksudnya negatif kn...tp bila sy fkr2 blik kn (besala nada keja so bfikir ja la knn keja ku skrg), x bek jua ckp macam tu...i am an adult but am still a teenager inside...

our parents - life dorg moden di zaman dorg but when compare to our life now kn, totally vintage...human are created with brain to think...thus, the earth is modernized each day...

so when it comes to SEX....dulu, sex is taboo...but not now...why? sebabnya, manusia skrg da makin moden...so kta x malu2 lg mau ckp psl sex...even kta pun ada belajar psl sexual behavior, sex pros and cons, sex prevention, etc...

so back to the news in metro, jan la simply said "budak zaman sekarang"...alasan sy, words tu tlalu negatif...org2 skrg kena la ingt...tech yg kta ada skrg ni tcipta sbb:

1) panas jua ni dunia, klu mcm ni la sllu mati la sy -->> maka tcipta nya air-cond...
2) gila mau p KL kena belayar 5 hari!! ingt kapal tu titanic ka yg besar blh bw ramai org, klu sy lpar mcmn?? --->> maka tciptanya kapal terbang...
3) kemarin surat x...hr ni pun surat x...bsuk confirm x...thun depan kli bru smpi --->> maka tciptanya SMS..murah lg tu 1sen ja per sms...mn mo cari...
4) astaga sy lupa bw buku telefon sy...mn sy hafal nma c anu bin c anu...cis, x dpt dating ni hr...--->> maka tciptanya contact d stiap hp, so x pyh lg mau hfl mau bw buku sgala...
etc...

makanya, dr negatif thasilnya ssuatu yg bru kn...tp tu untk tech...tp manusia?? klu sy kn, mkin negatif mkin tu sy bt...besala, aku kn curious...slama aku hidup, aku x blh kira sdh brapa byk benda yg "ep-no-no" sdh ku bt...so, aku tau la yg larangan adala 1 usaha yg sia2...

bla ckp "besala bdak zaman skrg"...mkin menjadi2 tu...so, next time ckp la "besala budak baru blajar"...hehehe yala, dorg belajar so mestila ada praktikal...tp praktikalnya silap smpai kantoi...

remaja2 yg ska tgk porn sites ka, ska bt porn vid as if dorg tu porn stars ka, bt la lg...tp jan la sampai kantoi..sbb dorg ni la punca remaja skrg ni mberontak...mberontak sbb dorg dlarang bt apa ja yg dorg mau dgn alasan parents takut dorg bt perkara x senonoh...well parents, u have to trust ur kid...teenagers prone to rebel...takn korg mc x tau kn...korg pun pena jua muda remaja hehe...mesti jua parents pena search mn2 utk tau what sex is kn...so better, confront la ur kid...since sex is not a taboo anymore kn, its easier for modern parent to say it out loud...haha...drpd dorg p bt praktikal trus bek ckp dgn dorg awl2 kn...klu parents bt mcm ni, x la org akn ckp "budak zaman skrg"...

# reason sy tulis entri ni --->> my mom bla-bla-bla this...bla-bla-bla that...to my nephew yg skrg ada cewek da...sy da ckp dgn my mom "kc biar la dorg...mau lrg nti mkin mjadi...klu mau kc ingt dorg da tblh ingt sdh tu...dorg blm teruk lg...n pastinya dorg x akn truk pun...men yakin ja ba..."...so, from this day onward, sy akn kantoi...alamak, tlbh sdh...LOLz....

ingt!!! jgn smpai kantoi!!!

jgn la tanya sy bla sy mau kwin...

dlu msa masi d U...org akn tanya...bla hbs blajar??

skrg bla da graduated...kena tnya...keja sdh??

but, now...im 24...just graduated...org da mulai tnya...bila nak kwin??

cba la ckp "wah, blh kwin sdh ko..."...rather than tnya sy bla mau kwin...coz sy x jwpn bla sy kwin...n sy pun x tau d mn sy blh dpt tu jwpn...mau tnya bf bikin malu ja...dia sendri pun confirm x tau bla dia mau kwin tba2 sy pla yg p tnya ni...

apa2 pun sy ska jua ba kena tnya...sbb asl kena tnya confirm sy ckp "ba p la cri sy sorg yg ngam..blh sy kwin trus dgn dia kn..."...

tp klu sy kena tnya lg solan 'bla mau kwin' ni bsuk onward, sy akn jwb "on the way"...well, sabahan kan sllu ckp "we are on the way"...oppa sabah style la knn...hehhee

we are young...XD

aku rindu dia...

org ni p outstation utk 3 mgu or maybe more...tmptnya lgsg x line...mau @ x kna la tgu dia blik dlu bru dpt contact...huhu...xpala org ni p utk keja bkn utk bt benda len...will miss u...:D

aku ber-zumba??

yeah....aku bzumba smalam...aku sendri pun mc x pcya aku blh2 p zumba ah smlm...

well, d jdkn crita, my sis blik kg kmarin...so dia bw la p zumba d putatan...at first, aku mmg x mau p...tp my sis ckp dia blik papar jua mlm lpas zumba so i decided to join...

zumba class with zin chacha d putatan...1st tym aku join...7pm klas tu start...

yg benarnya kn....aku malu ba join...malu sbb aku bkn nya pandai menari pun...badan keras mcm kayu ada ht mau menari tiang kn...lol...

tp xla sgt pun zumba ni mcm menari tiang...cma dia sexy ja...tu yg bt syok n mau lg knn menari ahh...hahahaha

so, after class, an hour later...banyk doh peluh...rmbt pun mcm bru ja kna cuci...melekat...bju pun melekat sbb basah...

tp yg pling kick.....klas tu kn di tingkat 3...so aku ni bru lg dgn zumba...so tym mau turun tangga....nah sna la paha ku sakit...bgegar kaki ku msa trun...sis ku ckp mmg mcm tu klu 1st tym p...huhu...so smlm smpi rmh trus mengampai tdo...

but now, the pain ody gone...yeepee...

next week, ada zumba party lg sna wisma wanita...ticket da beli...so kna la p...

kmarin sjam ja...d zumba party nti 1.5hr...kaki ku bkal skit lg ni nti...

apa2 pun currently aku ska pla mau menari tiang a.k.a bzumba...lol...hehe

aku x minat politik...sorry...

im proud to be malaysian...and im proud to be sabahan...but when it comes to politic - sorry, im out...

jam 8pm, mesti channel astro kna tukar p 103...tgk berita la knn...tp lately kn, mcm smua pun psl politik...recently, psl bajet...

deep inside me kn, sy x mau ambl tau...my reason - too much negativity...ya la, 1 part ckp bgus, 1 part ckp x bgus...sbagai rakyat, kdg jd bingung...

so sblm sy jd bingung, sy pilih utk x ambl tau...ska ht dorg la nak bt apa...yg pentg, malaysia x bperang, n hdup ku aman...

hepi bday utk dri sndri...

11.50 pm...10 min lg aku bkal jd 24thun 1hr...

so sblm bday aku xpired...aku mau wish hepi bday utk dri sndri...

aku pun x pasti brapa kli aku wish mcm tu utk dri sndri...hr ni...tanda ku syg dgn dri sndri g2...

apa2 pun...aku x bt apa2 party ka dinner ka utk bday ku hr ni...mgkn ahad ni kot...

6yrs b4 aku dilahirkn...my grandma (mom's side) passed away...exactly 6yrs b4 my bday...meaning, 19th sept 1982...bla bday ku kira sndri la ya...(klu mau la)...

so utk kesekian kalinya...happy 24th birthday dear afen...and happy 30th anniversary to grandma up above...i truly love myself...and i always love and missing you grandma...if only my grandma is here with me, i probably will give her hugs and kisses...coz i know i love her...

tu la aku sllu ingtkn famly ku anniversary my grandma...coz i want her memories stay with us...even i do not have any...

cheers grandma...hjg mgu ni kta mkn2 ya...:D