scottish wedding???

from best Scottish wedding magazine..

is this what my future Scottish wedding look like??? ahaks...maybe...maybe not...hehe :)
we'll see...
but obviously, not the kilt (he says...'no no')

he is a taurus, n im a virgo...

Traits of a Virgo

- analyst, purist, plays safe, worrier, has mood swings, perfectionist, easily learns mastery, demands respect, fair judgement, pessimistic, frequently depressed, destructive at times...

Like of a Virgo

- pursuit of trueness, standards, proper methodology, practicality, neat & tidy, friendliness

Dislikes of a Virgo

- chaos, noise, assymetry, change, risk, nagging

Traits of a Taurus

- steady, determined, reliable, stubborn, creative, kind, ferocious temper, lazy, habitual, loyal, generous, possessive  honest, financial wizard

Likes of a Taurus

- a comfortable life, independence, expensive things, delicious food & wine, beauty, a beautiful home, gardening, nature

Dislikes of a Taurus

- change, manipulative people, ugliness, betrayal, vulgarity, sex friends, being controlled

Taurus and Virgo - lovers

when Taurus man meets Virgo woman. they get very well with each other. His passion could easily ignite the fire that she has been trying to control. Bull can always bring out the best in Virgo and she will always be attracted by the high emotions displayed by the Taurus man. Good things about their relationship is that none will feel jealous because both are highly dedicated and loyal.

virgo woman will have to control the criticizing nature a bit to get the best in the relationship and to allow the Taurus man to go ahead at his own pace. Taurus man and Virgo woman share some of the common grounds and that helps them build up a workable partnership showering security and safety for each other in love.

While Taurus man is stubborn and rigid, Virgo woman is flexible and is willing to make flexibilities and that helps them build up workable relationship. Since both are able to adjust with each other nicely, a harmonious relation is always on the cards. Taurus man is practical, strong and stable and knows just how to take care of the person he loves. He is hard working and a man of action and likes to demonstrate his personality providing strong protection, love and romance for the woman and that fulfills the dream of Virgo woman who is cool and calm on the surface and remains mostly on the sidelines as observer.

A Virgo woman has powerful skill of observation and it will help them gain a precise as well as realistic view of the environment around her. She is the one of the sincerest mates till she finds the man to be unrealistic. Flexible in nature, she is ready to take up steps to make the relationship perfect and is very neat and clean in their thoughts and actions.

Confident adn strong individual Taurus man will always possess her Virgo woman as the most precious gem and always try to make her comfortable and happy. Both Virgo woman and Taurus man are fond of love and beauty as well as luxury and the couple works file.

Taurus man and Virgo woman are both sensual lovers and appreciate the simple pleasures extended by sex. Taurus man will neutralize the nervous trends in Virgo partner and he is also the man who can satisfy quite well the craving of Virgo woman for perfection in life, even in sex.

both earth signs share the ability to communicate and understand one another intuitively. their conversations get better over time and so does the relationship. They will understand each other's goals and hopes for the future. There is an unspoken bond here that once established, hardly ever gets broken. They will provide each other with what the other person instinctively needs and desires sexually. you can't go wrong with this astrological combination, period. a strong attraction and loyalty will keep these two together. Relatives can sometimes be a problem for these two. Focus on healing yourselves and each other and you will have a mate for life.

# im hoping that this time it works...

11...

when i was blogwalking, i found this....

1) New York City has 11 letters.
2) Afghanistan has 11 letters.
3) Ramsin Yuseb (The terrorist who threatened to destroy the Twin Towers in 1993) has 11 letters.
4) George W. Bush has 11 letters.
5) The two twin towers make an “11″

This could be a mere coincidence, but this gets more interesting:
1) New York is the 11th state.
2) The first plane crashing against the Twin Towers was flight number 11.
3) Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers. 9 + 2 = 11
4) Flight 77 which also hit Twin Towers, was carrying 65 passengers. 6+5 = 11
5) The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it is now known. 9 + 1+ 1 = 11
6) The date is equal to the US emergency services telephone number 911. 9 + 1 + 1 = 11.

Sheer coincidence..?! Read on and make up your own mind:
1) The total number of victims inside all the hi-jacked planes was 254. 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
2) September 11 is day number 254 of the calendar year. Again 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
3) The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004. 3 + 1 + 1 + 2 + 4 = 11.
4) The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after the Twin Towers incident.

Now this is where things get totally eerie:

The most recognized symbol for the US, after the Stars & Stripes, is the Eagle. The following verse is taken from the Quran, the Islamic holy book:

“For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle. The wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah and lo, while some of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for the wrath of the Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was peace.”

That verse is number 9.11 of the Quran.

Now try this and see how you feel afterwards.

Open Microsoft Word and do the following.
1. Type in capitals Q33 NY. This is the flight number of the first plane to hit one of the Twin Towers.
2. Highlight the Q33 N 
3. Change the font size to 48.
4. Change the actual font to WINGDINGS.

guys...

Im fat…im not pretty…n worse of all I wear a spec…

I do love reading…heavy reading I guess…I have Emily Bronte’s n Shakespeare’s books… John Gray’s, 

Love Letters of Famous Men n Women…etc…n I do love magazines (who doesn’t, right…) – Cleo is my most fav mag…

What else…hhhmmmm….

Kinda slow in action…but honestly, it wasn’t slow but I was thinking…

Totally a simple girl…

Im not wearing any make-up except my cherry lip balm…

Before I hate wearing jeans…

But 2 yrs ago…

I started to wear lens…from purple to green…from green to grey…n finally I love the hazel…

I straightened my hair daily before going to lectures…

I now wear jeans n jeggings…

I put some make-up on…n I really love thick black eyeliner…but still I wear my cherry lip balm…n no lipstick…

My style still the same – v-neck or deep v-neck…purple, black, red…n yet girlish…n I lurve wedges…

People starts noticing me…haha obviously not bcoz im pretty but they noticed the new me without my purple spec…they say that is the original me…ok…

Then…

I met 3 incredible guys…

Different stories, different situation, different time…

Guy #1…

(Obviously, name is confidential…)

I knew him through a friend of mine…

He texted me…wanna be my friend…he called me…then we went out for lunch…

I wore the usual me…usual me is me with spec…

Then I went back to my hostel…

A week later, received no news bout him…

I changed my fb profile photo…me without spec n a lil bit of makeup…

He called…he said “wow u r soo different…”…then we went out for another lunch date…

This time I wear my lens…

He admit that he has a long-distance-relationship gf…

But he was way too 18sx for me…

Then we lost contact…

Guy #2

I also knew him through a friend of mine…

But with him, im totally the new me…

We went out to a bar with a few friends of ours…I will not going to any bar alone with a guy…

At first, we usually text or call…then when we’re busy, we’re forgetting each other…

1 day, he asked me out to a bar…but I feel really not going…

N he said he really wanted to go out somewhere that nite coz he had a fight with his gf…

Then I said “sorry, bring ur gf la…im not in the ‘bar’ mode…”

Then we lost contact again…

Same things happened twice…n I still don’t wanna go out with someone else’s bf…

Last month, he called me asking me to go out with him…but I refused to go…

He said he broke up with his gf…n he wished that if we went out together that time, we will be steady…

And still “Sorry, im truly busy this month…”

Guy #3

Again, I knew this guy through my best friend…

He called me early in d morning…but im still under my duvet…

He keeps on calling…n finally I answered…

We talked for hours, I guess…

U know what I knew about him???

Surprised…surprised…surprised…

He had an affair while he was engaged to a girl, the ‘affair’ pregnant, they get married, and they have a son…the mom left the husband n the baby, n they still married…

I like the way he tells me the truth before we went out together…

Hehe…we went out for lunch…not a date…he’s nice…but not my type…

# my best friend said that im still young to feel the real love, and as a teenagers we have a long way to go to find our soulmate…I do agree that im young, im a teen, n im not yet feel the real love…I am turning 23 this sept…those 3 guys taught me to be matured…matured enough to know types of man that I may not supposed to fall into...

# d first guy…he has a gf – separated by distance…eventhough his gf will not know… but should I or should I not be with him??? Obviously I should not..im not a player n I respect female…besides, he is more attracted to beautiful woman…the more gorgeous u r the more open his eyes will be…hehe…but I want someone who can accept the ugly me n not just the nicer me…

#d 2^nd guy…he’s nice, actually…but a rebound guy??? No-no…he will using me to forget his gf…but once his gf wants him back, what will happen to me??? another heartbroken girl??? Aiya tak nak la…

# d 3^rd guy…he’s ok…he’s married…he said he don’t love his wife…but married guy with a nearly broken family??? I don’t think so…if im the guy, I would totally improve my relationship with my wife to make it works for the sake of my kid n not focusing on finding someone to be my 2^nd wife…

# who said 22 is not matured enough??? If im not matured then I might fall for the 3^rd guy since he has his own business n my future will be more secure than the other guys…

# if I love someone bcoz of what they can give me, that’s not love…that is selfishness…

# hehe now im single for months now…I’ll rock my single-hood with my own party rock anthem where everyone is shuffling…hehe

Father…my memories…

I was born on September 19, 1988…at General Hosp, Tawau…

Thanks to my dad – coz u created me…

Thanks to my mom – coz u delivered me to this Anthony’s family whom I really love…

Since yesterday was Father’s day, this is my story about my dad…

Im not sure what’s my first memory with my father is…

Coz it all mixed up inside my memory box…

#1 But I do pick this particular memory...

It happened when I was 5@6 yrs old…

I was in kindergarten…n was supposed to go to school…

Back then, we lived in a police barrack…block b level 2 (I guess…)

I woke up early, get dressed, went to ground floor, and met my friend…

We sat while waiting for our bus…

I remembered that I brought zinger burger…

N since the school’s policy is strictly no outside food, my friend n I ate the burger while waiting for the bus…

We really really enjoyed our time as if we’re on weekend…

So we missed the bus…

I don’t know what to do…n I was soo damn scared…

I went back home…n I was yelled by my father…

N I ran.away.

5@6 yrs old girl, who’s not yet a teenager, escaped school, n ran away from home…

Sigh…is that me??? huh??? Cant believe but I have to…

Ever since this happened, I never escaped any class when my father’s around…

But when I was in matriculation n in uni, I did escaped actually…

N for this, dad im sorry…

#2 2^nd memory is math…

Since I was in primary 1, my father did daily check on my math’s textbook and exercise book…

If I did any calculation wrong, then I have to prepare my ear to listen to him saying “u should….u should….u should…u should….”

Im not scared of my math’s teacher…but I did afraid of my unofficial math’s teacher at home – my dad…

I had to do all calculations correctly in a daily basis…

When I finished, I had to give it to him…n let him checked…if im 100% correct or not…

U know what its biggest influence on me???

I only studied math…math…n math…

My math’s result???

A for afen…

If it’s B, hhhuuu im ssssoooo dead….

Even in my major exams, I only studied math…

Other subject???

I did study but 80% lesser than math…but I still passed it all…

For this dad, thank u...

# eventho u yelled at me and be the scariest teacher on earth, u (n mom) r everything to me…

love story part 5...finale...

He chose me - twice….

I gave him another chance – twice…

N again, he cheated on me – countless…

N again, I gave him another chance…another chance…other chances…

I always remind myself that I still love him no matter what his mistakes are....

If u think im patient, yes 75% of our time…but the rest??? Im sorry…

Im sure u knows how much it hurts when u’ve been cheated countless times and yet u still love him…

Why???

I always wondered why I did that???

But lastly I came up with my own conclusion…

“I did that bcoz I believe that the negative actions and bad decisions he made, were just the minor him…but the major him is angel…I love him…n I can accept both his major and his minor…n im hoping that he will change for good…”

Yeah…sigh….

13 months after his graduation…after countless lies came up…after countless chances I gave him…after millions of “I Love U” wishes we exchanged…n after tons of gallons of tears…

I called it QUIT…

Why???

I can’t handle it anymore…im tired of being the superwoman saving our relationship while he keeps on lying…

Real love doesn’t hurt at all…love has its own languages but pain, hurt aren’t one of them…

If only he changed, maybe im still with him…but nobody wants to be changed…except his / her free will…

He texted me, he said to me, that he will changed for good, changed for me…laugh is all I can do…he lost 

my trust…n trust should be gained not given…but he blew all of his chances…

Ever since we broke up, I sometimes think that his next gf would be sooo damn lucky bcoz he’s already changed…n im just his experiment...hehe it’s good right…at least the experiment succeed…

If love = pain, I would not dare to fall in love again…

Consider to fall in love? – Maybe…

Letting go? – Yes…

People sometimes refer those who heartbroken as “people who close their heart’s door, locked it up, n threw away the key…so that someone will find the key n open the door for them someday…”

But for me, my heart is in ‘welcome in’ policy…n never being locked…

Why??? lock-and-find-key policy is sssoooo eeeeuuuwww n ssssooooo yester-century….

But…………………in my ‘welcome in’ policy, any man can enter, b friendly to me, but when it comes to love, he must pass the test below…

•           He must be able to accept the ugly side of me (nobody’s perfect mah…)

N after that….i might be falling in love again….maybe…eeeee tak nak….hehe…no la…I will…someday…

#Love is a friendship on fire…every couple should be able to balance friendship and romance and thus their relationship will last..my x n I still friends…we sometimes texted each other…but we r not on fire…we’re just on friendship…love supposed to end well…but mostly love ends with matrimony…but this particular love of mine is also ended up well eventhough not in a matrimony but in friendship…cheers…

 # for those who read my post from part 1 till part 5, thank u so much…J….next week another episodes bout me coming up…

love story part 4...

7 months later, on his graduation day….

He fetched me up at my hostel….n he brought his mom…

I met his mom for the first time…kinda shy at first…

He was sitting in front with his other course mates waiting for their name to be called…

While me and his mom, chatting, get to know each other… N we became closer…

I texted him asking him when will his turn, where’s the toilet, remind him to be calm, remind him to take some photos while he seated, etc…

He replied all…at first he took time to reply my sms…I asked him “r u bz?”….n he replied “nope, but my credit almost finished…”

Then, I stop testing him…

When the ceremony ended, we had lunch together…

We talked, we laughed….we had a great time together…

Really, really, really great time…

10 mins later….we were at the gas station…he was outside pumping…

Sms came in to his phone…im not a phone-checker…I trust him…so be a phone-checker-gf is a no-no for me…

But, his phone is nokia…n it is still in its inbox…it was bright…n I can c from ****, her msg was “luv u 2”…

Inside me, I was like @#$!%$@%%^&^&!^&*&@*&*@&*!*@*!&@*!^#&%#&…

I was sooo damn pissed….but I have to be triple extra patient...coz his mom was sat at the backseat…

He entered the car…i gave his phone back with the lite-on screen in front of his face…

He read the words…he took his phone…not saying a word…he drove…

I wanna cry…but still I can’t…

On the way back, im totally mute…

His mom asked me “why r u so silent?”…I just sat there silently…while my bf said “she misses me…”

Sigh…

I was being cheated for 8 months…

I was being the 2^nd gf…

I was being called bf-snatcher since secondary…

Am I still a bf-snatcher???

I don’t think so, coz he’s the one who cheating on us…

Hours later…I asked him to give me the other girl’s phone number…

N days later, he finally gave me, after I convinced him that I will not hurt her…

I am a girl…I will not hurting another girl…bcoz for me, hurting another girl is as equal as hurting myself…so I won’t let myself hurt…

Thus, I text the girl, asking for her permission to call…

She said yes…n I called…

We were on the phone for almost an hour…

We knew the truth…

It hurts so bad…so damn bad…

She said she wanna let him go for me…n I said “don’t be la…im the bf-snatcher here…so u stay…”

N she replied “i will let him go for u…u r a bf-snatcher…plz don’t do like this again…u never know that one 

day your husband will be like him…”

I can accept if it’s my bf…but my husband??? I don’t think I can…

I start n end the conversation without hurting anyone…I even apologized to the other girl…it wasn’t my intention to take her bf away…

I let my bf decide again…I let him talked to the other girl…im not pushing him to choose me…

I did say to him that if he chooses me, I will not be like afen-ur-gf before…I lost my trust to him…he was totally losing it…

But 1 thing that isn’t lost is - I still love him…which I didn’t told him that time…

N once again – he chose me…

# the truth is out there n yet to be found…n once again our relationship is being tested…c u all on part 5…

# when ur relationship being tested like this, do stay calm…I know that it’s hurt…but always stay calm…u never know what ur calm can do to you…people always says “peace no war…”…so if u wanna confront the other girl, pls do it peacefully…it is easier for u two to talk…besides, u do this for your love…not for yourself…bcoz love consists of two person, not you alone…if u r called a bf-snatcher, don’t give a damn about that…don’t get mad…just admit…n if u r wrong, just say sorry…