why now????

knpa bru skrg ko mau sy blik???

slma ni aku sdh bg ko pluang...aku siap tnya lg if ko mau kita blik mcm dlu...

tp ko nemau...

fine, aku trima ja...e2 kputusan ko...

tp bila aku da ada org len, sna la jua ko mau aku blik dgn ko...

pluang yg aku bg n ko sia2kn tu knapa???

ko mgaku ko bodoh n ko myesal tp da terlalu lewat...

aku da ada org len...

tlng la jan cuci fikiran sy dgn fikiran negatif ko...

tlng jan buruk2kn org len coz dri sendri pun x perfect..

if ko mc suka, sy x kesa..bkn sy x pduli tp apa yg sy blh bt??

sy bkn ats pgar mau pilih sepa...sy sdh bt pilihan...

mcm yg ko pena ckp dgn sy "if kita ada jodoh, nda ke mn jua tu..."

so if kita ada jodoh, nda ke mn jua tu...

sy nemau bg ko hrpn...n sy nemau elak ko...

so bt msa skrg, kta jd kwn dlu k...

*kena bt entri bm coz c kawan sorg tu kn nda fhm b.m...kesian dia...

5 persons that i love....

no.1 ---------> myself....well, i have to love myself more than i love anyone...this is my only self and this is my only live so it is my responsible to love every bit of me...i love u myself...

no.2 ---------> my parents...i live because of them...they give me life...they give me everything...i love u mom, n i love u dad...

no.3 ---------> my family....my sisters, my bros-in-law, my nieces, my nephews....i love them...they make my day more cheerful and more meaningful...with lots of characters, we can laugh all day....

no.4 ---------> my friends...when you are away from your family, your friends can be the closest family you will have...even if you are close with your family, your friends will be the one you find when you want to share things especially your love live, your dirty little secrets, etc..hehe

no.5 ---------> __________....this one is special...i let it blank and empty because i am waiting for someone that i will call The One to be my husband...im not sure who he is...so i have no name...eventhough i love someone but it doesnt mean that he is The One...yet...hehe

5 secret things about me...

no.1 ---------> im in love with a guy who lives 6868 miles away from me...

no.2 ---------> i wouldnt dare to tell my family that i love to drink vodka & gin and tonic...

no 3 ---------> i wouldnt dare to tell my friends that i have a messy bedroom...

no.4 ---------> i borrowed books from a library using my xbf's library cards since 2009 (i guess) and up until now, i forgot where i put those books...whoooppsss....

no.5 ---------> im a 10% hoarder...there are times that i cant throw away my things cause i feel soo damn attached to it...but sometimes, i do throw away those things cause i feel its messing up my room...

aku rasa dorg ni hensem...:D

tym cuti2 U ni, stay d rmh ja la keja ku...

then hr2 aku temankn mamaku tgk drama petang2...

sinetron gitu...

dr jam 1 smpi jam 5 ba mamaku tgk sinetron...

tp aku honestly...nda suka tgk sinetron...

bkn lg nda suka tp benci...

why??

sebab jln critanya nda msuk akal ni kdg2...

selalu ja dperbesarkn...

benda kcl jd besar sgt2...

cnthnya, elak kreta tp ter'hit' divider, nda jua sberapa truk tp..

kaki nda blh jln...

aduina...ktara nipu...

hehe

btw,

nda la sumenya negative hehe...

yg positifnya, 

ada pelakon llkinya tu hensem...

e2 yg bt kn aku tgk...

hr2...

(tgk hr2 pun nda tau crita...tgk utk cuci mata ja...)

above pic - c fadhil d kemilau cinta kamila...

jonas rivanno namanya...

tp tu sinetron kn...aduhai...

nangis ja ni...

klu ada 1000 episode kn, 999 episode nangis, n 1 ja yg hepi...

aku nda suka tgk tp c fadhil aku ska tgk..

hehe

ni gunawan dr sinetron hikmah yg dlu2 tu...

ni pun sinetron adu mak..mmg nangis mmg susa tp ok la compare dr kemilau cinta kamila...

hehe...

aku lupa la apa nma watak c gunawan d hikmah...

tp yg aku tau dia hensem la...

hehe..

# aku nda tau la sepa actor yg kmu rsa hensem..but for me dorg ni the handsome among the handsome so there will be more handsome actors out there...the choice is yours...haha...lps ni aku kena la lg tgk sinetron utk cuci mata smentara cuti2 U...hehe

post in english pun kena tegur?? apa kes???

manusia ada otak n ada mulut...
mmg susah mau control otak n mulut manusia..

ada sorg kwn ni...aku btul2 x tau la knapa dgn dia ni...
dia p ckp dgn kwn ku sorg psl blog aku...
then aku tnya la knpa dgn blog aku...
ni ya reason nya...

dia: blog c afen namanya ja pengikut sabahan blogger la, wsb la, n yg follow sume pun org msia, tp c afen post english pla...lupa daratan ka dia tu?? da tu byk lg postnya psl bfnya...tp bfnya nda jua pena komen2 d post cinta dia tu...ceh, klu aku la ada blog aku nemau la post english..aku mau kekalkan bahasa melayu aku...mcm tembirang oo kn dia...bila dia bkomen dgn blogger len pndi pla dia gna melayu...eeee geli eh...

aduh tlng la...sot kn ada kwn mcm ni...
nsb bek dia kwn if bkn kwn hbs da aku sindir...
aduh afen sabar ja la...

so aku mau tnya...
slh ka aku post in english???
lupa daratan ka aku if aku post in english???
tembirang ka aku???

# this particular note (here) is for u my dear fren...aku tau ko akn bca jua blog aku ni...coz aku kwn ko kn...aku tau ko nada blog...if ko brani ko bt la ba blog melayu ko...aku ada jua ba post in malay mgkn ko ja nda prasan...psl bf ku tu aku nda la kesa ko mau ckp apa...dia mmg x blog coz dia full-time keja...tp aku tau wpn kmi jau n dia lgsg x fhm melayu, aku tau dia bca blog aku wpn dia x komen...psl komen ku dgn other blogger, aku komen malay if post dorg malay n aku komen english if post dorg english...doesnt matter as long as the other blogger understands me...english ok ka x, this isnt an english class, so wtf...i just be myself...cheers...love u fren...:)

top 5 important three-words...

These three-words (for me) are the most important words everyone should be able to say...and not to forget, really, really, really, really mean it...

1) i love you...

obviously, everyone can say it...but truly mean it?? depends on u...i love u mom, i love u dad, i love u bro, i love u sis, i love u friend, i love u honey, i love u hubby, i love u wifey...etc...when someone telling you that he/she loves you, you will automatically feels appreciated, wanted and not to forget loved...if that's what you may feel, then start saying i love you to people that you love...they may feel the same as you...

* to my gra geal mo chroi, get well soon n i love u...

lelove

2) i miss you...

what will you feel when your special someone texting you calling you and say "i miss you"?? 

when my gra geal mo chroi spent three weeks in spain for his business without calling me, texting me...once he got back to scotland, he called me and without saying hello, he said "i miss you..."...i was so damn in love with him...i cant explained my feeling...i miss him damn much...

so, it doesn't matter if it is 3 weeks or 5 mins, as long as u feel that u miss someone, then tell him/her how much u miss them...trust me, that person will be speechless....

lelove

3) im so sorry...

people say that someone need humiliation before being able to say that they are sorry...we are human...and obviously, nobody's perfect...we made mistakes or failures...so we have to admit it...

back in May, i had spent 2 weeks of hell in n.z with my sis n her friend...that friend was so damn annoying...why?? because she made millions of mistakes but she didnt admit that she was wrong...when i asked her why she didnt admit on the first place, she yelled back at me...as if im wrong...whatever...
so, if you are wrong just say 'im so sorry'...it changes everything...

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4) i thank you..
wishing 'i thank you' shows your gratitude...it shows your appreciation...isnt it good when someone you helped wishing you thank you? you will feel appreciated...so dont let others say thank you to you but you didnt wanna say thank you to those who help you...

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5) God bless you...
God bless you...my favourite...should i say more?? im sure u know what this words make u feel...

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# the words are randomly pick and randomly rank...cheers :)

betul ka aku??

September 19 birthday interpretation...

- has a willingness...

- prepared to take risks in life...

- successful in any business especially if it's connects with travel and the travel industry...

- calm self-reliance...

- unlikely to bow down and lose way under undue pressure...

- endowed with inherent understanding and appreciation even the most complex problems/situation can be overcome, when given the time and dealt in the most appropriate manner...

- confident in your own ability to be able to deal with any matter/challenge that you may encounter in life...

- have a fascinating charm that intrigues people (able to smooth away the rough edges in order to arrive at uncluttered solutions)...

- able to ironing our problems, tidying things up, streamlining, and refining all forms of matters/undertakings...

- will face numerous occasions throughout your life, where you will have to make a choice between that occasions with your personal relationship...

- will experience a number of tumultuous relationship...

- have strong appreciation for education and not only for the retention of knowledge, but also that of adding thereto your own thoughts, insights and opinions...

- have strong interest in things that are beautiful to the eye...

- critical minds...

- perfectionist...

- difficult to satisfy...

can i trust this???

no no no that is a wrong question...

the right question is...

is this me???

have willingness n prepare to take risk - i am...

i have taken a lot of risks in my life...

including escape exam...who dares to escape exam??? i do...

i did it for the sake of nz...

business in travel - not sure...

calm self-reliance - ME is the biggest motivator, so i guess...yeah...

the next 3 - im not sure...

fascinating charm - hehe, i really like it (if any..)

ironing up problem etc - maybe yes maybe not...but who on earth cant ironing their own prob, right??

1st red - omg...how am i gonna handle this when it comes??

well, kinda face it now...

family vs my lover...is this in???

obviously...i cant choose....now...

maybe later...hehe

2nd red - haish...no wonder i experienced bad relationships...

september 19...is it really u the reason why it all happened??

strong appreciation, interest - hehe who doesnt???

i appreciate education...

n i do interest in beautiful things...

hehe...

critical minds - omg...no wonder, i always have ifs and buts inside my mind...

perfectionist - nobody's perfect, so i guess no...

difficult to satisfy - still, nobody's perfect, so i guess no...

if i say yes, then i'll also a perfectionist, in which im not...

but if i do, then let it be my dirty lil secret...hehe

# ffffuuuuuhhhh.........it is hard to be me.....but up until now, im fine with me...totally fine...eventho i have ups and downs (thanks to september 19), i have ME (my motivator)...n surely i will be okay for the rest of my life...my love, accept who i am, k...:)

top 3 words women use...

i used to say these words to my xbf...n some words i used to my gra geal mo chroi...

1) Fine: usually women use 'fine' to end an argument...and that's true..i used it a lot when i was still with my x...i do mean for him to shut up...but sometimes he keep on asking/talking/arguing n it totally pissed me of..

2) hehe this next words - 5 minutes, totally unfair to man...here's why...

boy:  it's been 5 minutes...are u ready yet??
girl: ok...5 more minutes...
(another 5 minutes...)
boy: are u ready yet??
girl: almost...5 minutes...

what we women really mean is 30 minutes...hehe...we wanna get dressed, look good for u boy...hehe
but the unfair part is...

girl: will u help me throw away those garbage??
boy: ok..(eyes on telly...)...5 minutes...
(after 5 minutes)
girl: throw away those garbage now!!!!!
boy: ok...ok...

pity u boy...

3) last nite, my gra geal mo chroi called me...he asked me something and i answered nothing...well, nothing is the next word...

me: it's nothing...trust me...
my gra geal mo chroi: nothing??? are u sure??? nothing means something, right??...so tell me whats bothering u...
me: trust me...nothing is nothing, ok...
my gra geal mo chroi: ok...

well, i do mean something...but i feel not telling...so hun, im sorry...cheers...hehe

a week...

a week without God:
mourn-day...tears-day...waste-day...thirst-day...fight-day...shatter-day...sin-day...

there is no oil, if olives are not squeezed...
no wine, if grapes are not pressed...
no perfume, if flowers are not crushed...

whatever your day is, make sure it is a God's day...
God's plan for us is to bring out the very best in us...

have faith...cheers....

11...

when i was blogwalking, i found this....

1) New York City has 11 letters.
2) Afghanistan has 11 letters.
3) Ramsin Yuseb (The terrorist who threatened to destroy the Twin Towers in 1993) has 11 letters.
4) George W. Bush has 11 letters.
5) The two twin towers make an “11″

This could be a mere coincidence, but this gets more interesting:
1) New York is the 11th state.
2) The first plane crashing against the Twin Towers was flight number 11.
3) Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers. 9 + 2 = 11
4) Flight 77 which also hit Twin Towers, was carrying 65 passengers. 6+5 = 11
5) The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it is now known. 9 + 1+ 1 = 11
6) The date is equal to the US emergency services telephone number 911. 9 + 1 + 1 = 11.

Sheer coincidence..?! Read on and make up your own mind:
1) The total number of victims inside all the hi-jacked planes was 254. 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
2) September 11 is day number 254 of the calendar year. Again 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
3) The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004. 3 + 1 + 1 + 2 + 4 = 11.
4) The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after the Twin Towers incident.

Now this is where things get totally eerie:

The most recognized symbol for the US, after the Stars & Stripes, is the Eagle. The following verse is taken from the Quran, the Islamic holy book:

“For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle. The wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah and lo, while some of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for the wrath of the Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was peace.”

That verse is number 9.11 of the Quran.

Now try this and see how you feel afterwards.

Open Microsoft Word and do the following.
1. Type in capitals Q33 NY. This is the flight number of the first plane to hit one of the Twin Towers.
2. Highlight the Q33 N 
3. Change the font size to 48.
4. Change the actual font to WINGDINGS.