how can i handle this????

omg...

how can i handle this???

ops...

how can i handle THESE???

kakiku nda mampu mau bdiri apa lg blari...

tanganku nda mampu mau sentuh pa lg pegang...

otakku nda mampu mau bfikir pa lg berehat...

kusutnya...gila...

problem...problem...problems...

btul2 la aku ni the human magnet of problem...

blh ka aku rehat dr problem skejap??? 5 min pun cukup la...

sy mau nangis ooo...

klu mcm ni la kehidupan kn ku tdo selamanya...

d situ manis di sana jua la pahit...

hr ku esok, aku bharap sgt u will be super duper extra gentle to me...

aku bharap aku bgun esok, aku senyum...

wpun dlm ht aku tkt dgn realiti...

mcm2 da aku kena...mcm2 da aku bt...

wpun kdg2 aku lari nda bmksd aku lupa @ penakut..

dear God...

aku nemau jd greedy...

1 ja aku minta, just give me strength...

aku tau aku mampu handle ni...

just give me strength.....n i will be okay...

amen....

betul ka aku??

September 19 birthday interpretation...

- has a willingness...

- prepared to take risks in life...

- successful in any business especially if it's connects with travel and the travel industry...

- calm self-reliance...

- unlikely to bow down and lose way under undue pressure...

- endowed with inherent understanding and appreciation even the most complex problems/situation can be overcome, when given the time and dealt in the most appropriate manner...

- confident in your own ability to be able to deal with any matter/challenge that you may encounter in life...

- have a fascinating charm that intrigues people (able to smooth away the rough edges in order to arrive at uncluttered solutions)...

- able to ironing our problems, tidying things up, streamlining, and refining all forms of matters/undertakings...

- will face numerous occasions throughout your life, where you will have to make a choice between that occasions with your personal relationship...

- will experience a number of tumultuous relationship...

- have strong appreciation for education and not only for the retention of knowledge, but also that of adding thereto your own thoughts, insights and opinions...

- have strong interest in things that are beautiful to the eye...

- critical minds...

- perfectionist...

- difficult to satisfy...

can i trust this???

no no no that is a wrong question...

the right question is...

is this me???

have willingness n prepare to take risk - i am...

i have taken a lot of risks in my life...

including escape exam...who dares to escape exam??? i do...

i did it for the sake of nz...

business in travel - not sure...

calm self-reliance - ME is the biggest motivator, so i guess...yeah...

the next 3 - im not sure...

fascinating charm - hehe, i really like it (if any..)

ironing up problem etc - maybe yes maybe not...but who on earth cant ironing their own prob, right??

1st red - omg...how am i gonna handle this when it comes??

well, kinda face it now...

family vs my lover...is this in???

obviously...i cant choose....now...

maybe later...hehe

2nd red - haish...no wonder i experienced bad relationships...

september 19...is it really u the reason why it all happened??

strong appreciation, interest - hehe who doesnt???

i appreciate education...

n i do interest in beautiful things...

hehe...

critical minds - omg...no wonder, i always have ifs and buts inside my mind...

perfectionist - nobody's perfect, so i guess no...

difficult to satisfy - still, nobody's perfect, so i guess no...

if i say yes, then i'll also a perfectionist, in which im not...

but if i do, then let it be my dirty lil secret...hehe

# ffffuuuuuhhhh.........it is hard to be me.....but up until now, im fine with me...totally fine...eventho i have ups and downs (thanks to september 19), i have ME (my motivator)...n surely i will be okay for the rest of my life...my love, accept who i am, k...:)

top 3 words women use...

i used to say these words to my xbf...n some words i used to my gra geal mo chroi...

1) Fine: usually women use 'fine' to end an argument...and that's true..i used it a lot when i was still with my x...i do mean for him to shut up...but sometimes he keep on asking/talking/arguing n it totally pissed me of..

2) hehe this next words - 5 minutes, totally unfair to man...here's why...

boy:  it's been 5 minutes...are u ready yet??
girl: ok...5 more minutes...
(another 5 minutes...)
boy: are u ready yet??
girl: almost...5 minutes...

what we women really mean is 30 minutes...hehe...we wanna get dressed, look good for u boy...hehe
but the unfair part is...

girl: will u help me throw away those garbage??
boy: ok..(eyes on telly...)...5 minutes...
(after 5 minutes)
girl: throw away those garbage now!!!!!
boy: ok...ok...

pity u boy...

3) last nite, my gra geal mo chroi called me...he asked me something and i answered nothing...well, nothing is the next word...

me: it's nothing...trust me...
my gra geal mo chroi: nothing??? are u sure??? nothing means something, right??...so tell me whats bothering u...
me: trust me...nothing is nothing, ok...
my gra geal mo chroi: ok...

well, i do mean something...but i feel not telling...so hun, im sorry...cheers...hehe

[HD] Breathless - Shayne Ward

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

Chorus

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

# this song reminds me of him...

you...

Long Distance Relationship.

i miss u & i love u...

nak tanya blh??

i just wanna ask,

if korg kena suru pilih atr:

a) orang yg suka kmu, tp kmu x brapa suka @ blm suka sgt

b) orang yg kmu suka, tp x brapa suka kmu @ blm suka kmu sgt

mn kmu pilih??

hehe aku tau punya ada yg akn jwb 'hhmmm cri org len la'...

tp aku nemau jwpn 2...

plh atr a @ b ja...

bagi aku kan, aku pilih a kot...

biar la org ckp "ko tipu diri ko sendri.."

tp positifnya someday aku akn suka dia kn...

org selalu ckp

'cinta yg agung (cewah) adalah bila kmu lgsg nada expect apa2.."

eya meh??

if btul mcm 2 tpaksa la pilih b kn...

coz cinta agung kn nada expect pa2 dr tu org...

so jan expect dia akn suka kita blik...

aduina sadisnya...

nemau aku mcm 2...

if aku pilih b pun aku akn ttp expect dia akn suka sy blik (knn...)

tp kdg2 manusia ni ada yg risk-taker ada yg x...

terpulang dgn individu...

so pilihan n reason kmu apa pla???

so a or b???

a letter to someone from afen...

dear someone,

u r a boy n im a girl...if u could read this, i wanna say 2 things to u...1 is i wanna wish im sorry...n 2 is i wanna ask u why??...im not sure why i wanna wish im sorry...coz i dont think i had made any mistakes...but if i did do wrong which i forgot, plz forgive me...i really wanna ask u why...but i have no guts to do it...bcoz u seems unreachable to me...so my dear, i wished upon the stars, that someday we will talk again...

p/s: i know u r extremely busy with ur work..so do it well..

xoxo,
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