5 secret things about me...

no.1 ---------> im in love with a guy who lives 6868 miles away from me...

no.2 ---------> i wouldnt dare to tell my family that i love to drink vodka & gin and tonic...

no 3 ---------> i wouldnt dare to tell my friends that i have a messy bedroom...

no.4 ---------> i borrowed books from a library using my xbf's library cards since 2009 (i guess) and up until now, i forgot where i put those books...whoooppsss....

no.5 ---------> im a 10% hoarder...there are times that i cant throw away my things cause i feel soo damn attached to it...but sometimes, i do throw away those things cause i feel its messing up my room...

lelaki...hebat ka ko mau pukul perempuan???

yaaaa lelaki ketua kluarga, lelaki diciptakan kuat dr perempuan, so lelaki diciptakan untuk mjaga perempuan...

so???

kenapa jua lelaki kau pukul perempuan???

kau gila sudah ka??

# ya aku emo skrg....that particular lelaki has a name and that particular perempuan very close to me...even closer...

apa punca aku tak tau...

but whatever the reason is - LELAKI TAK PATUT PUKUL PEREMPUAN!!!!!!!

lelaki stress keja??? - hei...sepa yang tidak stress keja kn...tp stress keja pun that stress stays in the office ba...once u balik keja, and arrive home, pukul family ka??? e2 ka yg lelaki stress keja patut buat???

what else??? lelaki tak cukup duit??? - once lelaki jd suami, jd bapa...pandai2 la ba kan fikir pasal bini pasal anak...pasal tanggungjawab...duit gaji tu dahulukn la ba mana2 part yang penting...settle kn bil, makan minum for the whole family...if ada baki then p la berjoli if u want...but do remember to save some la...if x ckup utk diri sendri then pukul bini ka??

if ada problem pun, ada otak kn untuk fikir solutions...susah macam mana pun fikir kan la something untuk senangkan problem tu...dgn pukul bini blh selesaikan msalah ka??? klu dgn memukul something blh solve any kind of problems, aku rasa nada problem dalam dunia hr2...stress ja pukul bantal n keja balik...nada duit ja pukul bantal trus hujan duit...macam tu ka???

# aku tak faham kenapa lelaki ringan sgt mau angkat tangan...apa kau ingat kau kuat??? aku bkn la mau bawa bertumbuk ka apa...n aku pun yg benarnya nda mau msuk cmpur psal hal ni coz aku tau how tiny i am as the youngest in the family...but shit la if aku pandang remeh ja benda ni...

# to that particular lelaki, u lost my respect...u expect me to respect u again??? HELL-2-D-NO....

my sis' homemade cakes n cupcakes....i love it!!!!!!!!

tomorrow is my sis' birthday...

well, every birthday MUST-HAVE is CAKE...

n since my other sis have a homemade cakes and cupcakes business, we usually ordered cakes or cupcakes from her...

u named it, she can bake...hehe

before, i do love secret recipe...n still do...but now, i cant help myself to compare my sis' cakes with secret recipe...both have their own pros and cons...

but i love my sis' cakes more..hehe...even angel (my cat) love it..

to secret recipes' lovers, dont take this as an offence k..bcoz i still love secret recipes...the cheese cakes uuuuu yummm....

if anybody interested to learn, my sis also have baking classes...Rm150++ per cake...with all ingredients provided n the cake u bake is yours...

my fav cake is red velvet...RM100 per cake not per kilo...i can eat it all...without sharing...honestly, u should try...pppsssttt one of my sis' colleague said "Sutera's velvet cake is not as good as my sis'..." this is a compliment and dear readers dont think negatively...hehe

above pic - red velvet...

3-tier wedding cake...

my niece's cake...choc indulgence with edible image..

the cake finished within an hour...

200 cupcakes for Puteri UMNO...

fondant cake...

blueberry cheese cake...my no.2 fav after velvet...

# my sis' cakes collection is countless...so i cant post it all...there are other kind of cake - opera cake, japanese cotton cheese etc...u named it...all are yyyyuuummm.....

wedding dress...:D

my besfriend asked me "afen, how about your wedding dress??"

to be honest to her...i was totally forgot about this whole wedding thing...

coz i have other thing to think about...sorry dear...

since my bff asked me, here i am to share couple of thoughts on my future wedding dress...

(but i have to lose tons of pounds to be perfectly fit like the models...hehe...)

wedding dress characteristics:

a) white....a must

b) chiffon...

c) lace...

d) sexy bareback...

e) not princess-like...hate it...

above pic - when the time comes, definitely be the one...

but have to add lace to be more me...

first photo + lace = above photo...

bareback...lurve it...

n must have...:D

Lacey detail is a must...

gorgeous n sexy...

one of my wedding photo will be exactly like this...

hehe..

even without a bareback, a V-back is damn gorgeous...

full lace with belt?? OMG...

i love the above pic before the first photo...

kinda simple but really shows the simple-me...

this dress is pretty but honestly i hate it..

i dont like the A-line wedding dress...

i want to walk freely...without any heavy burden below...

i know it is not that heavy but i just dont like it being huge...

# but for my scottish wedding, 5 dress codes:

a) sleeveless

b) train

c) veil

d) tiara

e) fresh bouquet

so, i think my dream dresses above will suitable with my scottish wedding...hehe...eventho i dont like to wear a tiara but if it is a must then i will consider it then...

# ffuuhh choosing wedding dress is not an easy task...even searching the right dress online is hard enough for me...i can imagine those who already married having their hard time choosing their own wedding dress from bridal shop to another bridal shop...

# well, 2 important things i found when choosing a wedding dress are:

a) the dress itself - its your wedding, your life time wedding, choose your dress that really shows who u r, 

b) money - well, u can either buy it or rent it...for me, i want to buy it rather than rent it...so choose your price accordingly...dont be over budget...

aku rasa dorg ni hensem...:D

tym cuti2 U ni, stay d rmh ja la keja ku...

then hr2 aku temankn mamaku tgk drama petang2...

sinetron gitu...

dr jam 1 smpi jam 5 ba mamaku tgk sinetron...

tp aku honestly...nda suka tgk sinetron...

bkn lg nda suka tp benci...

why??

sebab jln critanya nda msuk akal ni kdg2...

selalu ja dperbesarkn...

benda kcl jd besar sgt2...

cnthnya, elak kreta tp ter'hit' divider, nda jua sberapa truk tp..

kaki nda blh jln...

aduina...ktara nipu...

hehe

btw,

nda la sumenya negative hehe...

yg positifnya, 

ada pelakon llkinya tu hensem...

e2 yg bt kn aku tgk...

hr2...

(tgk hr2 pun nda tau crita...tgk utk cuci mata ja...)

above pic - c fadhil d kemilau cinta kamila...

jonas rivanno namanya...

tp tu sinetron kn...aduhai...

nangis ja ni...

klu ada 1000 episode kn, 999 episode nangis, n 1 ja yg hepi...

aku nda suka tgk tp c fadhil aku ska tgk..

hehe

ni gunawan dr sinetron hikmah yg dlu2 tu...

ni pun sinetron adu mak..mmg nangis mmg susa tp ok la compare dr kemilau cinta kamila...

hehe...

aku lupa la apa nma watak c gunawan d hikmah...

tp yg aku tau dia hensem la...

hehe..

# aku nda tau la sepa actor yg kmu rsa hensem..but for me dorg ni the handsome among the handsome so there will be more handsome actors out there...the choice is yours...haha...lps ni aku kena la lg tgk sinetron utk cuci mata smentara cuti2 U...hehe

a friend...a jealousy...a hate...

i have a 'cool' friend..who has a 'cool' attitude...n has a 'cool' mouth...

i assumed that she is one of my closest friend, who knows a lot about me...

so, i shared my love's story to her...

i dont usually shared my love's story to her...ever since we had this conversation last year...

her: afen, i want to tell u something...im happy...so i hope u r happy with me too...

me: u r my friend, so of coz i will be happy with u if u r happy...im so excited...so tell me...

her: well, my bf is a pure Singaporean...

me: really??? woow....congratulations my friend...im so happy with u...so tell me more...

her: hehe thanks afen...i knew u will be happy...even if ur future bf is sabahan...

me: huh?? what do u mean even if my future bf is sabahan??

her: well, u know me right...i dont want to have a bf/fiance/husband from sabah....its ssooo euw...i want someone different...but it suits u tho...not me...

me: hehe i wont mind at all if my future bf/fiance/husband comes from sabah...as long as we're in love then we're ok...

her: hehe thats why it suits u...but not me...

we talked about her current relationship for about an hour...the way she talks, really annoys me...i cant accept when she said that sabahan guy is so euw, she dont want any of them...but dont she remember that her father and brother are pure sabahan too?? well, she's been in singapore since 2009 (i guess) and she'd already changed...she forgot where she comes from...if she is living farther than that, then i guess she will be forgetting malaysia as well...but she is my friend so whatever she is, i can still accept her...

then, we chat on monday...for catching up...we r soo damn happy at first...she is still with the singaporean guy..they r so madly deeply in love...

then, she asked me if i have a bf or not...at first i dont want to tell her...so i denied...but she keeps on asking...n telling me how beautiful love is...then, i told her about my gra geal mo chroi...and here is her reaction...

her: omg....i cant believe it...from scotland??

me: yeah...from scotland...

her: what??? do u want to be an english whore now???

me: english whore???!!!! watch what you're typing my friend...
her: hey, i mean it...u r an english whore now...

me: stop joking ok...

her: afen, im not joking here...u r a slut...

me: dont be such a shit...i am not an english whore n i am not a slut...what makes u think that??

her: what else a malaysian woman wants from an english guy??? his money...

me: i had never asked money from him before...

her: dont be ridiculous afen...i know u...u will never suits him...only sabahan guy will...u just want his money...n u just want to relocate to scotland...euw...i dont wanna have a friend like u...english whore...

then she sign off...

30 mins later, im still blur...im not sure what had happened to her...im so pissed when she called me an english whore...

is it my fault that i fall in love with an english guy??

am i an english whore?? 

i told my gra geal mo chroi...and this is his reaction...

my gra geal mo chroi: ur friend has never spoke or met me before...and now she judges me...judges u...judges us...loving u is more important than sex and money...im sorry for my next words, but your friend has a mouth fully loaded with shit...she's jealous with u...

me: but she is my friend...

my gra geal mo chroi: i know...now she reveals her true self...and that true self of hers will be hers forever...she will never changed...

me: i know she is bitchy sometimes, but i still accept her bcoz she is my friend...

my gra geal mo chroi: r u a slow learner??

well...im not a slow learner...but i do believe in second chance...but, i did gave her many chances before...but calling me an english whore?? thats unacceptable n unforgivable...

# to my dear friend, u should accept who am i with...just bcoz u have a singaporean lover doesnt mean u r on top of others n u can say negative things to ur friends...i dont have any intention to beat u in terms of who has a non-sabahan bf...when love comes, even hell can meet heaven and so is scotland n sabah...btw, dont forget where u come from coz u have ur family there knowing u, waiting u, missing u n loving u...u have to throw away your euw attitude...i may be ur friend in mere future...but i wont be the same...thanks to u...cheers...

scottish rings for scottish wedding....

wedding....wedding...wedding...

im sorry if u r bored...but im here to tell u every details of my wedding...well, my wedding actually will be around 2@4 yrs from now...

my gra geal mo chroi said, i have to finish my study first before moving in to aberdeen...

as u know, i do this for my very best friend....so friend here's what my rings will be...

3 type of rings - engagement ring, wedding ring, and traditional scottish rings...

above pic - engagement ring...not exactly like that..prefer a simple ring for engagement..but purple is a must...

above pic - wedding ring...no silver coz i allergic to it...no golden gold coz i hate it...so white gold it is...with a complex pattern...

in scottish wedding tradition, there will be three different rings for different occasions...but it all depends on the couple whether to follow the traditions or not...

1st ring is the fede ring...contained decoratively inscribed sentiment - e.g Gra Anois Go Deo (love, now and forever), given as engagement rings..

2nd ring - claddagh ring..have a cut in the form of two clasped hands, symbolizing trust..kept as family heirlooms, and passed from mother to daughter...used as betrothal and wedding ring..

3rd rings - celtic knot wedding ring..will be used as wedding ring...every ring has its own unique features with its own meaning...photo below shows the trinity knot (an individual strand and wraps in into and onto itself) symbolized the way in which three separate essences (The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit) vitally interconnected..it also symbolize the weaving together of two lives...

# for me, the first two rings are the most important...the scottish rings?? well it depends on my gra geal mo chroi...if he wants us to follow the scottish tradition, then i will have all the three rings...but im surely, we didnt...why?? if we did follow the tradition then he will wear kilt on our wedding day...btw, kilt is a BIG NO-NO for him...hehe..

# if only i marry that scottish man...cheers...:)