serius, aku benci...

aku ada sorg kwn ni...knl nta dr thun bila...dia kazen with my best buddy...dr awl kmi knl, dia mmg tau sy ada special someone...till one day, i told him la yg im currently single, since he asked me if im still with his cousin or not...

but before he asked me that, he always said that he likes me...he always asked if i will be his gf one day...and as always my answer will be no, not now...

since i knew him, i never asked anything about his current/past relationship...coz for me kn, sbagai kwn x perlu la mau tau...mcm busy body pla...

but he always call me syg eventho im not his syg...sy x kesa if dia mau pgl sy syg...coz i just assume syg is my new nickname instead of afen...

from the first time, i gave him my number, i was like not wanting/expecting his call/text...i gave him my dg, so i left my dg phone in my bedroom, always...but after a few days, few phone calls and few texts from him, i decided to reply all, its been ages since i last reload my dg so i used my celcom...but actually kn, sy x suka ba mau reply or talk with any guy..tp rsa bsalah punya pasal sy reply all msgs tmasuk la msgs yg sy x reply dulu2 x kira sepa sendernya...

recently, after weeks of silence between the two of us, i decided to give him a call...as always im syg...he asked me again if i would love to be his gf...and as always i said no, not now...

lg 1 benda aku x ska is aku x ska mau cek fb org...apa lg mau bca latest status updates...but yesterday, i was 'told' to check his fb...so i checked la...guess what i found in his timeline..earlier feb 2012, twice ah he puts married to _________...and just days before i called him, he changed from married to single...

his latest posts kn mainly about a guy and a cheating girl...1 postnya he mention yg llki n ppuan tu da bbek n da blik together n happy with a child...so i asked him why...dgn kerasnya lg sy tnya dia...

finally dia mgaku...mmg dia setia dgn ppuan tu slama ni...tp ppuan tu curang dgn dia...and i was like, wow, pndi ko tipu sy slama ni ya...and he said "sy mmg ska ko"...nsb bek sy cma agp dia kwn...

then sy msg la dia, "sburuk2 mn pun prangai ppuan tu, if ko mmg syg dgn dia dr dlu, ko patutnya cri jln utk bbek dgn dia...bkn p cri ppuan len utk mlupakn prob...if ko cri ppuan len e2 hanya tmbhkn prob..."

serius aku benci llaki mcm ni...mmg la ht sakit if gf/bf curang...tp jan la gunakan ppuan/llki len utk mlupakan the cheating gf/bf...some cases kn mmg la bkesan cra rebound ni...tp what if the cheating gf/bf wanna us back? ko tau ko mmg ska the cheating gf/bf n ko gna kn ppuan/llki bru, for sure yg bru ko lpaskn kn...e2 la reason why ppl x akn cri bf/gf bru in blink of an eye due to hope...hope that they will be together again...kta sure mharap mcm tu sbb kta tbesa dgn "let loose of someone that u love, if he/she comes back, then he/she is yours to keep"...unless if llki tu mmg ska dgn yg bru then tu len crita la knn...haha

tp yg ppuan ni pun 1...bfnya c A dia curang dgn c B dia break dgn c B dia blik dgn c A then dia curang lg dgn c C...omigod...aku serius benci jua dgn ppuan mcm ni...mcmn la llki akn ska ppuan if llki sndri pun tkt dgn possibility ppuan curang...last2 dpt llki yg curang dan bknnya llki bek...ppuan ni hrus rasa bruntung coz c A mc ska n setia dgn dia...tp org kata setia ni ada had limit...n if dorg ada baby, aku hope sgt2 yg dorg akn blik n setia n happy together for the sake of the baby...

n me? im 23, still young...n i dont wanna have any bf...coz i still wanna enjoy my commitment-free life...

btw, he just called me...he said pls dun get mad...so i just said, sy x mrh, sy cma x mau tmbh masalah...sekian....

warm enough for me to shower???

my nieces sometimes talked about love...how did you realized that you fall for him?? what is love?? etc..

honestly, i was eavesdropped their conversation...

but when it get steamy ops dreamy, i interrupt them...

haha...i am their younger, single but unavailable aunt...they asked me things related to love...

but since im not married yet, i just said "to know if he is the one for me, i have to test the 'water', if it is warm enough for me to shower..."

 and they were like "huh??????!!!!! water???? shower??? whats that mean??? naked???" with blur face...

hahahahaha...

and so i gave them a free lecture about my quote...

to make it easier i rephrase the quote to "to know if he is the one for me, i have to test the guy, if he is good enough for me to be with me..."

and so they did understand that the water refer to the guy...not the actual water we used to shower...

shower (to be together) is our aim...

temperature (warm, hot, or cold) is our test/criteria...

one of my niece asked me "why u use all these water, warm and shower things??? it is so complicated..."

well, my reason i gave them is "imagine, when you want to take a shower, and the water is too cold, your shower probably last for 5 mins, if the water is too hot, you probably dont want to take your shower, and if it is warm, you will feel relaxed and you will take your time in the bathroom ignoring others out there knocking...and so is you and your partner...you know if he is the one when you test him..."

to test the guy, we need a thermometer so that we can know his body temperature...hahaha no...

the guy should be able to accept us, ladies, as we are...the good and the bad...no exception...and that will be the test...some guy may want to change his partner...but do not change us...because we know that you guys dont want to be changed too...

others may say, " women are like roses, pretty but be careful with the thorns.."

if he can accept who we are then he is the one...

my niece ask me "love???"

and i said "you love him right...if he shows you how much he loves you, and can accept who you are, then give him the same...love him and accept who he is...dont change him too..."

then, she asked me again, "what's the other thorns???"

find it yourselves...its inside and its outside...you will know what the thorn is when the thorn is sharp enough to  hurt one or both of you and your partner...

top 3 fears/phobias that can prevent success in your relationship...

1 ---------> Pistanthrophobia...fear of trusting people...a person with this kind of fear may not opening up to their lover because of his/her past hurt/betrayal experiences, suspicious thoughts which turn into some actions (constant calling to check where his/her partner is, constantly starting unnecessary arguments, name calling, stalking behaviour etc), and feeling of losing their other half...

in my opinion, some couple have problem trusting their partner and almost all lovers out there afraid of losing their other half...and i dare to admit that i do had both...but is that mean i have pistanthrophobia??? i dont think so...because i am totally normal...

2 ---------> Philophobia....fear of falling in love...a person with this phobia had been hurt in the past and not knowing that their partner does love them back...it always come up with the fear of rejection...since they've been hurt before, they decided not to show their emotions again...

well...i do have fear of rejection...but fear of falling in love??? never...hehe...i do want to fall in love...eventhough i had been in a few break-ups doesnt mean my love stops there...my love continues...yeah love rawk!!!

3 ---------> commitment-phobia (commitorum-metus)...fear of commitment...scared of taking things to the next level, staying in a relationship too long, putting a title (boyfriend, girlfriend, fiancee, husband, wife...)...they will act irrationally, they may lie, cheat, or hurt their partner...and find ways to get out from the relationship before it gets serious...

huish...whomever have this kind of phobia, stop flirting...dont start love if u just want to end it...

# so dear readers, i do hope that you dont have any of the above phobia...i know you are normal like me...we dont have that kind of phobias...ye yea...