2nd week puasa (i guess)...biskut raya da habis???

td aku pasang telinga masa sis ku bkol dgn sis ku lg sorg...dorg whispering ah..

(aku nda tau la apa sis ku lg sorg ckp...so ni conversation 1 org ja la ya...)

sis: eya...ada ulat bulu diats..
sis: hhhmmm makmur 1 balang pun hbs sdh...
sis: aku order 4 balang...tgl 2 balang lg di atas...
sis: klu aku kc turun tu ulat bulu...hhhmmmm 5 min ja hbs sdh tu...pirana ba dorg semua ni...bsuk la msa bday bru kc kluar...

hahaha....sis ku mmg suka order biskut awl2...

bkn utk raya pun...actually those biskut utk mkn2 ja...

besala kn pirana....cpt ja hbs so kna kc kluar tym byk org d rmh...especially ni hr kn bday pupuch (my nephew)...

nti mau dkt raya order lg...hbs lg...order lg...hbs lg...order lg...hbs lg...then raya hbs sdh...so nada sdh...kna tgu lg tym xmas...

last yr raya pun mcm tu...dtg ja coco lara....damn...biggest temptation ever geng...

sedap gila...

top 3 fears/phobias that can prevent success in your relationship...

1 ---------> Pistanthrophobia...fear of trusting people...a person with this kind of fear may not opening up to their lover because of his/her past hurt/betrayal experiences, suspicious thoughts which turn into some actions (constant calling to check where his/her partner is, constantly starting unnecessary arguments, name calling, stalking behaviour etc), and feeling of losing their other half...

in my opinion, some couple have problem trusting their partner and almost all lovers out there afraid of losing their other half...and i dare to admit that i do had both...but is that mean i have pistanthrophobia??? i dont think so...because i am totally normal...

2 ---------> Philophobia....fear of falling in love...a person with this phobia had been hurt in the past and not knowing that their partner does love them back...it always come up with the fear of rejection...since they've been hurt before, they decided not to show their emotions again...

well...i do have fear of rejection...but fear of falling in love??? never...hehe...i do want to fall in love...eventhough i had been in a few break-ups doesnt mean my love stops there...my love continues...yeah love rawk!!!

3 ---------> commitment-phobia (commitorum-metus)...fear of commitment...scared of taking things to the next level, staying in a relationship too long, putting a title (boyfriend, girlfriend, fiancee, husband, wife...)...they will act irrationally, they may lie, cheat, or hurt their partner...and find ways to get out from the relationship before it gets serious...

huish...whomever have this kind of phobia, stop flirting...dont start love if u just want to end it...

# so dear readers, i do hope that you dont have any of the above phobia...i know you are normal like me...we dont have that kind of phobias...ye yea...

just get married...please...:D

a friend in FB recently posted...

her: i hope i can end my singlehood this yr...

15 likes and 30++ comments...

im hoping that her boyfriend fulfill her wish a.s.a.p

you want to know why??

because the girlfriend posted in FB how much she loves her boyfriend every 1 min...

my FB's home full with her posts...

besides, the boyfriend recently posted "dear, me hav to go, keep updating my FB k..."

after that, the girlfriend log in his boyfriend's FB and post some love related things...and the girlfriend likes every post from the boyfriend...

it puzzled me actually...

if the boyfriend is away, and the girlfriend updating his boyfriend's FB, while the girlfriend likes all the updates...hhhmmmm i can only come up with a conclusion...

that....

the girlfriend is struggle for attraction...

maybe la...

hehe...i feel annoyed by it actually...and no, im not jealous...

just imagine if in 1 hr, 10 posts from the girlfriend and in a day there will be 240 if she's not doing anything...probably 100-130 per day...

just it is too FB's PDA (public display of affection)...

BTW, i hope that they married soon...they are truly madly deeply in love...fingers crossed...

amen...

edinburgh....ed-in-bu-ra...me?? 100000000% shy...

me and my partner...well, im sure u can guess who he is...hehe...

on saturday, we talked for about 4 hrs...

i told him that one of my friend had their engagement photoshoot in Edinburgh...and his reaction was:

me: edinburgh (i pronounced it edinb-u-r-k...)
him: ????
me: edinb-u-r-k...
him: oooooo u mean edinburgh (he pronounced it ed-in-bu-ra...)
me: ooooo (red face) ed-in-bu-ra (with lower volume possible..)
him: ed-in-bu-ra....hehehe say it...ed-in-bu-ra...(with devilish laugh...) now is your turn to learn...

we ended up laughing...but me?? OMG....padan muka..why??

before this, i used to laugh when he pronounce kuala lumpur, sabah, kota kinabalu, manukan, borneo, etc...coz its sounds funny when he pronounced it...and i have to say it slowly ko-ta ki-na-ba-lu...but he said kkooo-ttaaaa kkkiii-nnaa-bbaaa-lu (he pronounced the lu faster than the rest)...

it sounds funny, i can laugh...

but now....i pronounced the word wrongly...and his turn to laugh at me...ahahhahaha

well...to be positive, i dont think im the one on earth pronounce edinburgh, ed-in-bu-rk...im pretty sure there are others out there pronounced it like me...but since, he taught me how to pronounce it in Scots way then im happy that im right...hehe

to be negative, OMG...im still shy...damn shy....totally shy...

* a lesson to be taken by me: do not laugh at people who cant pronounced a word perfectly....tgk apa jd dgn sy, padan muka...lol

why now????

knpa bru skrg ko mau sy blik???

slma ni aku sdh bg ko pluang...aku siap tnya lg if ko mau kita blik mcm dlu...

tp ko nemau...

fine, aku trima ja...e2 kputusan ko...

tp bila aku da ada org len, sna la jua ko mau aku blik dgn ko...

pluang yg aku bg n ko sia2kn tu knapa???

ko mgaku ko bodoh n ko myesal tp da terlalu lewat...

aku da ada org len...

tlng la jan cuci fikiran sy dgn fikiran negatif ko...

tlng jan buruk2kn org len coz dri sendri pun x perfect..

if ko mc suka, sy x kesa..bkn sy x pduli tp apa yg sy blh bt??

sy bkn ats pgar mau pilih sepa...sy sdh bt pilihan...

mcm yg ko pena ckp dgn sy "if kita ada jodoh, nda ke mn jua tu..."

so if kita ada jodoh, nda ke mn jua tu...

sy nemau bg ko hrpn...n sy nemau elak ko...

so bt msa skrg, kta jd kwn dlu k...

*kena bt entri bm coz c kawan sorg tu kn nda fhm b.m...kesian dia...

The Notebook...

Do you know how much i love The Notebook???
well...im telling u now...

i love it...i truly, truly love it...

this movie is the reason why i love romantic movie/story so much...

i watched it again and again...getting bored??? never...

dear stars above, can you be my eyes to search for my Noah???

dear God, i sincerely pray to let me have my own Noah...

in terms of love, he is the one i want...

i dare you to let me be your one and only.....

time: 3.15am...

date: 4th aug 2011...

mood: in love...

hehe...as i write this, im listening to adele's songs...and i wonder how many types of love i had been into...each of her songs remind me of love...my past love experience, my current love, and my future love...uuuu not to forget secret admire...well, i bet everyone have one...

"I wont let you close enough to hurt me, i wont ask you, you to just desert me, i cant give you what you think you gave me, its time to say goodbye to turning tables..." taken from Turning Tables...

---------> it reminds me of my ex-boyfriend...as the lyric says "I wont let you close enough to hurt me.." thus i left him...

"I wish I could lay down beside you when the day is done, and wake up to your face against the morning sun, but like everything I've ever known, you disappear one day, so i spend my whole life hiding my heart away..." taken from Hiding My Heart Away...

---------> well, it reminds me of my secret admire...haha...very funny you know when you actually had a secret admire whom you think you like/love...but you didn't have the guts to say because you might think that he/she is not that into you...so you just hiding your heart away...keep pretending...keep stalking...this secret admire of mine, i keep it secret from him not because i don't have the guts needed but i pretty sure that he is still in love with his ex-girlfriend so what's the point of me telling, right?? people use to say that "let your love go, if it comes back it is yours to keep"...and so i proudly let him go...not hoping for him to come back because there are plenty of guy out there for me to meet/like/love...lol...

"don't you remember? the reason you loved me before, baby, please remember me once more, when was the last time you thought of me? or have you completely erased me from your memory? i often think about where i would roam, more i do, the less i know" taken from Don't You Remember...

---------> hehe...the above lyric shows my entire feelings when i broke up with my boyfriend...he dumped me, actually...it happened years ago...and i kinda find it damn funny now...(i'm having a huge devilish laugh now....hahahaha)....well, it is normal for someone to feel that way...and it is normal for someone to finally find it funny...that's how i react when i broke up with him...asking myself why he did that as if he didn't remember the reason he loved me before...asking myself if he ever think of me...obviously, no...hehe

"However far away, I will always love you, however long I stay, I will always love you, whatever words I say, I will always love you, I will always love you" taken from Love Song..

---------> refer to someone new, someone latest, someone i call "him" and most important thing is someone i exchange "I love you" with...to that special someone (if you ever read this), i do afraid to the word 'always'...always seems permanent to me whereas there is nothing on earth that is permanent...and thus I'm afraid of losing you...

"I could make you happy, make your dreams come true, nothing that i wouldn't do, go to the ends of the earth for you, to make you feel my love" taken from Make You Feel My Love...

"You'll never know, if you never try, to forgive your past,and simply be mine, I dare you to let me be your one and only" taken form One and Only...

---------> those lyric will be for my future...if i ever find someone who is serious enough, I would dare him to let me be his one and only...hehe...and when the time comes, i would love to use the word 'always'...always make him feel my love, always love him...always...