Wednesday, February 15, 2012

My Precious Valentine...with dad...

it wasnt a day with my boyfriend....but it was a day that my father was discharged from hospital...and it was the blessed day ever..

sat, 11 feb 2012..
at first, i blamed myself for not checking my father thoroughly...i just knocked the door, switched on the light, and asked my father if he wants to eat or not...i thought my father was sleeping...but he wasnt...

he was cold, shaking, sweating, and unconscious...i have no idea how long he was in that conditions..a minute, an hour, or maybe more...i was scared and panicked...not sure what to do, i texted my sister and called my mom...i was actually crying for a minute in my room before i decided to text, to call and to go downstair to tell my other sister...

i cant handled that kind of situation...i will be crying inside while shaking on the outside...i was full with guilt...

when we were in the hospital, waiting patiently outside the emergency room, families keep asking me, why i didnt waking up my dad earlier...i did...but my assumption was wrong...

the doctor told us that my father's sugar level was low...dangerously low...1.9...he could die...so he stayed in the hospital for 4 days...dripped with sugar...

my father's sugar count can increase/decrease like bullet train fast or snail slow...and it was pretty scary...coz we have to maintain the sugar...so that it not fall to dangerously low or fly up to diabetic high...it was easy in the hospital since they have their sugar indicator (not sure whats its name)...but its really hard now since my dad already checked out from the hospital-hotel...

so, we have to make sure that my dad have enough sugar everyday...thats mean, eating sweets....and eating on time...no more skipping meals...

i wish that after this experience, no more drop dead sugar incident...i want my parents to be A ok...

btw, i love to celebrate valentine's day...even if some people said that it shouldnt be celebrated...since love can be celebrate each and everyday...but for me, YES we can celebrate and cherish our love everyday, we can buy flowers, chocolates or presents everyday...but valentines day is known as love's day...no matter what history behind it, but its a LOVE's DAY....its a day to express love, to share love and to be with love out of jealousy (sy mengaku sy jeles nmpk kwn dpt bunga bln may padahal bukan valentines day coz sy pun mau 1...so bgus lg bg sma2 dgn kwn msa valentines day so no envy girl hehe...)....

so, apa2 pun yg other people ckp psl valentines day, i tak kesa...sy mau jua celebrate valentines day the way i want to celebrate it...valentines day not strictly to christians only...its for all...same goes to friendship day...why you wanna celebrate friendship more than love?? is friendship for all while love for christian?? if people still wanna categorized non-living things as christian or non-christian, go ahead...my advice for christians out there - we stand what we stand, hold tight, remain silent, and dont join anger..my advice for non-christian out there who want to plot anything against christian - as malaysians, you should know that Islam and AGONG are two issues that shouldnt be touched, your religion is secured now and forever, then why bother others?