a friend...a jealousy...a hate...

i have a 'cool' friend..who has a 'cool' attitude...n has a 'cool' mouth...

i assumed that she is one of my closest friend, who knows a lot about me...

so, i shared my love's story to her...

i dont usually shared my love's story to her...ever since we had this conversation last year...

her: afen, i want to tell u something...im happy...so i hope u r happy with me too...

me: u r my friend, so of coz i will be happy with u if u r happy...im so excited...so tell me...

her: well, my bf is a pure Singaporean...

me: really??? woow....congratulations my friend...im so happy with u...so tell me more...

her: hehe thanks afen...i knew u will be happy...even if ur future bf is sabahan...

me: huh?? what do u mean even if my future bf is sabahan??

her: well, u know me right...i dont want to have a bf/fiance/husband from sabah....its ssooo euw...i want someone different...but it suits u tho...not me...

me: hehe i wont mind at all if my future bf/fiance/husband comes from sabah...as long as we're in love then we're ok...

her: hehe thats why it suits u...but not me...

we talked about her current relationship for about an hour...the way she talks, really annoys me...i cant accept when she said that sabahan guy is so euw, she dont want any of them...but dont she remember that her father and brother are pure sabahan too?? well, she's been in singapore since 2009 (i guess) and she'd already changed...she forgot where she comes from...if she is living farther than that, then i guess she will be forgetting malaysia as well...but she is my friend so whatever she is, i can still accept her...

then, we chat on monday...for catching up...we r soo damn happy at first...she is still with the singaporean guy..they r so madly deeply in love...

then, she asked me if i have a bf or not...at first i dont want to tell her...so i denied...but she keeps on asking...n telling me how beautiful love is...then, i told her about my gra geal mo chroi...and here is her reaction...

her: omg....i cant believe it...from scotland??

me: yeah...from scotland...

her: what??? do u want to be an english whore now???

me: english whore???!!!! watch what you're typing my friend...
her: hey, i mean it...u r an english whore now...

me: stop joking ok...

her: afen, im not joking here...u r a slut...

me: dont be such a shit...i am not an english whore n i am not a slut...what makes u think that??

her: what else a malaysian woman wants from an english guy??? his money...

me: i had never asked money from him before...

her: dont be ridiculous afen...i know u...u will never suits him...only sabahan guy will...u just want his money...n u just want to relocate to scotland...euw...i dont wanna have a friend like u...english whore...

then she sign off...

30 mins later, im still blur...im not sure what had happened to her...im so pissed when she called me an english whore...

is it my fault that i fall in love with an english guy??

am i an english whore?? 

i told my gra geal mo chroi...and this is his reaction...

my gra geal mo chroi: ur friend has never spoke or met me before...and now she judges me...judges u...judges us...loving u is more important than sex and money...im sorry for my next words, but your friend has a mouth fully loaded with shit...she's jealous with u...

me: but she is my friend...

my gra geal mo chroi: i know...now she reveals her true self...and that true self of hers will be hers forever...she will never changed...

me: i know she is bitchy sometimes, but i still accept her bcoz she is my friend...

my gra geal mo chroi: r u a slow learner??

well...im not a slow learner...but i do believe in second chance...but, i did gave her many chances before...but calling me an english whore?? thats unacceptable n unforgivable...

# to my dear friend, u should accept who am i with...just bcoz u have a singaporean lover doesnt mean u r on top of others n u can say negative things to ur friends...i dont have any intention to beat u in terms of who has a non-sabahan bf...when love comes, even hell can meet heaven and so is scotland n sabah...btw, dont forget where u come from coz u have ur family there knowing u, waiting u, missing u n loving u...u have to throw away your euw attitude...i may be ur friend in mere future...but i wont be the same...thanks to u...cheers...

scottish rings for scottish wedding....

wedding....wedding...wedding...

im sorry if u r bored...but im here to tell u every details of my wedding...well, my wedding actually will be around 2@4 yrs from now...

my gra geal mo chroi said, i have to finish my study first before moving in to aberdeen...

as u know, i do this for my very best friend....so friend here's what my rings will be...

3 type of rings - engagement ring, wedding ring, and traditional scottish rings...

above pic - engagement ring...not exactly like that..prefer a simple ring for engagement..but purple is a must...

above pic - wedding ring...no silver coz i allergic to it...no golden gold coz i hate it...so white gold it is...with a complex pattern...

in scottish wedding tradition, there will be three different rings for different occasions...but it all depends on the couple whether to follow the traditions or not...

1st ring is the fede ring...contained decoratively inscribed sentiment - e.g Gra Anois Go Deo (love, now and forever), given as engagement rings..

2nd ring - claddagh ring..have a cut in the form of two clasped hands, symbolizing trust..kept as family heirlooms, and passed from mother to daughter...used as betrothal and wedding ring..

3rd rings - celtic knot wedding ring..will be used as wedding ring...every ring has its own unique features with its own meaning...photo below shows the trinity knot (an individual strand and wraps in into and onto itself) symbolized the way in which three separate essences (The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit) vitally interconnected..it also symbolize the weaving together of two lives...

# for me, the first two rings are the most important...the scottish rings?? well it depends on my gra geal mo chroi...if he wants us to follow the scottish tradition, then i will have all the three rings...but im surely, we didnt...why?? if we did follow the tradition then he will wear kilt on our wedding day...btw, kilt is a BIG NO-NO for him...hehe..

# if only i marry that scottish man...cheers...:)

wedding theme...

there's only me...myself...n i...in my family...who's not married yet...
one of my geng and my cousin....both will settle down this nov...

YEAH....

this yr will be my yeah2-ing yr...yeah2-ing for both marriages...and many other things...

hehe...can i say 'im jealous??"...
honestly...im pretty jealous actually...and who doesnt, right??
im not sure when my time is...
soon...i guess...haha

my friend did asked me...
my friend: i want a garden theme wedding...u??
me: me?? (rolling eyes...) hhhmmmm i dont know...
my friend: what??? every girl have their own wedding fantasies...and u didnt have any???
me: ok i will think of 1 theme later k...when the time comes...

years later...many of my friends were settled down n have their own babies...
me???
im still struggling in my study...and still have no wedding fantasies...

for me, i will have my wedding fantasies when the time really is coming...
but now, i do have my wedding theme...
eventhough im not engaged to any man yet...

# dear friend, u know how much i cherish our friendship...and i heard a lot about your wedding theme...and u asked me a lot about mine...so here's the answer...i will give u every details of my future wedding...for starter, my wedding theme...

for sure...English style...

purple...purple...purple...green just for freshness...

purple is a must...peacock just for fun...

icy lilac, rasberry, amethyst - color range...

# photos taken from wedding high...the ultimate irish wedding blog...