summer tamat...maksudnya???!!!

maksudnya.......u.k kurang 1 jam...

some of u may think, "huh??? kurang 1 jam??? punya bjuta jam sna...sot ni org..."

well, hehe aku bkn la sot...tp during summer kn time difference between uk n msia is 7hrs...

time nw: 3.00am....means a month n 4hrs left before the summer ends in uk...and 4hrs left before it turns to 8hrs apart...

omg 8hrs apart nw??? damn...sigh....no no no....

we survived the 7hrs apart...and hopefully with billions of lucks we can survive 8hrs apart, yet again...

im crossing my fingers now...

H.I.M

Ola...

He Is Mine...

thanks...

xoxo, Afen

Ciao...

LDR n aku...kmu sanggup ka ganti???

ola......

long distance relationship (ldr)...sure korg pun tau kn...

hr ni aku n dia ada date....tp yg kesiannya, date cuma d y.m ja....kesian kn...

apa punya date la knn tu kn...

well...

bg kmi e2 la date...

so, kmi trima ja la...

we r perfectly in love, but not in a perfect condition...where distance is the main culprit...damn...

he's my gra geal mo chroi (click if u want to know what it is n who he is...)

btw....
im not supposed to write in english...damn u friend...

kmi, beza msa = 7 jam
kmi, beza jarak = 6900 miles
kmi, msg rate (msia) = 0.20 sen/text (murah coz guna clcm)
kmi, kol rate (msia) = 0.88 sen/min (compare to other line clcm tetap murah)
kmi, kol rate (uk) = 45p/min

dia yg slalu kol...if sy kol dia tdo@dia keja...if dia yg kol, sy bgun...nada keja pa2 pun d rmh...

sbb beza msa tu, dia kol awal pg around 6am (msia) sna 11pm...bru ja dorg gelap...bygkn if sy kol jam 11pm sna jam 6am sure la x dpt kn coz dia tdo...nda pa la kn sy sacrifice msa pg since dia keja sy d rmh ja...takn mau pentingkn dri kn...

ada skali dia kol 35mins = £20...convert duit sni rm96...trus nda smpi ht knn ni sy suru dia kol...tp biar la ba kn da dia yg kol...

sepa2 yg mcm kmi ni, mmg kena tahan ht...LDR mcm ni, kmu sanggup??
beza msa jarak mcm ni punya teruk, kmu mau??
if kamu sanggup n kamu mau, meh kita tukar blh???
hehe bkn la aku nda sanggup n nda mau sdh...aku mc mau dong...
tp SUSAH.............................................................................................................
padan muka kn.......

klu kmu rsa kmu kena trust ur other half 100% then i have to trust him 200% with extra 20 makes it 220%.....
na kau, nda mampu da ni geng...
apa la x....dia kerap outstation, klu shari 2 nda pa ni 3 minggu...
klu stakat d uk, aku blh trima coz slalu jua dia outstation within uk utk sminggu....klu tmpt len dia p lma...
tym ni, byk la setan p bmanja dgn aku tu, trus ba tfikir apa la knn dia bt sna tu?? btul meh dia p keja?? etc..tp ada ku kesa??? nada....coz i have my 220% trust on him...

so msa dia outstation even within uk, aku nda la ba mau kcau...lgsg ni nda msg nda kol...if dia msg sy bls la, if dia kol sure la aku jwb...sepa la x kn...haha...dan aku nda akn fikir yg bkn2 coz aku knl sepa dia...

hjg thun ni dia bakal ada resort sendri, tp dia x bgtau sy d mn...a hint from him "resort tu dia beli coz dekat dgn sy"...walau d mn pun resortnya tu, makin la btambah dia busy kn...mkin ka ada masa utk sy??? hhhhmmmm knfm la nada...

apa2 pun stakat ni, nada problem...n aku pun nda akn minta problem...palis2 jau2...psal msa nda pa, sume beres kok...

cuma 1 ja aku hrp that my 220% of trust is worth the wait....

warm enough for me to shower???

my nieces sometimes talked about love...how did you realized that you fall for him?? what is love?? etc..

honestly, i was eavesdropped their conversation...

but when it get steamy ops dreamy, i interrupt them...

haha...i am their younger, single but unavailable aunt...they asked me things related to love...

but since im not married yet, i just said "to know if he is the one for me, i have to test the 'water', if it is warm enough for me to shower..."

 and they were like "huh??????!!!!! water???? shower??? whats that mean??? naked???" with blur face...

hahahahaha...

and so i gave them a free lecture about my quote...

to make it easier i rephrase the quote to "to know if he is the one for me, i have to test the guy, if he is good enough for me to be with me..."

and so they did understand that the water refer to the guy...not the actual water we used to shower...

shower (to be together) is our aim...

temperature (warm, hot, or cold) is our test/criteria...

one of my niece asked me "why u use all these water, warm and shower things??? it is so complicated..."

well, my reason i gave them is "imagine, when you want to take a shower, and the water is too cold, your shower probably last for 5 mins, if the water is too hot, you probably dont want to take your shower, and if it is warm, you will feel relaxed and you will take your time in the bathroom ignoring others out there knocking...and so is you and your partner...you know if he is the one when you test him..."

to test the guy, we need a thermometer so that we can know his body temperature...hahaha no...

the guy should be able to accept us, ladies, as we are...the good and the bad...no exception...and that will be the test...some guy may want to change his partner...but do not change us...because we know that you guys dont want to be changed too...

others may say, " women are like roses, pretty but be careful with the thorns.."

if he can accept who we are then he is the one...

my niece ask me "love???"

and i said "you love him right...if he shows you how much he loves you, and can accept who you are, then give him the same...love him and accept who he is...dont change him too..."

then, she asked me again, "what's the other thorns???"

find it yourselves...its inside and its outside...you will know what the thorn is when the thorn is sharp enough to  hurt one or both of you and your partner...

whats ur opinion - may-december relationship...

may-december relationship refer to a relationship in which one partner is older than the other partner...

why may-december??? sorry im clueless...its just a term used to show huge age gap between the couple...

usually, this kind of relationship refer to a man being much older than his lover...but, it was then...now, there are some may-dec relationship where the woman is older than her lover..

does age really matter to you??

is your criteria for a girlfriend/wife/boyfriend/husband include the age?? not too young, not too old or same age??

may-dec pros include stability (for sure) and learning from one another...this relationship somewhat more stable because the older partner is more patient and forgiving (well, im not sure of this because there are man out there, i mean younger, who is patient and forgiving enough to his partner...) but maybe this relationship is more stable in terms of finance because the older partner (for sure) is financially successful...and since each partner is in a different stage of life (one partner is 40+ and the other is 20+), they can teach and inspire each other...

the cons, people, physical and family...people staring because a partner is older and the other partner is younger..they will think the younger (if a woman) is a gold digger...while physical, the younger is hitting his/her sexual prime while the older is far beyond it, do you believe it?? there is a saying somewhere on the internet "the physical is a big deal, if it isn't, why are you sleeping together at all??"...( but for me, when someone is in love, the love is unconditional...so they can accept their partner fully...for physical, there are ways to solve it...honestly i dont know how to solve it because im not into it yet...hehe)...for family, younger partner have to deal with his/her stepchildren while the older partner have to deal with the wife's/husband's family...the stepchildren may think that he/she want to replace their mom/dad while the family may treat the older partner as though he/she is having a mid-life crisis...

but, whatever the cons is, it is mainly about perception...how someone think about this kind of relationship...the positive will be great, the negative, hhhmmm will have to give them a chill pill so that they can chill, relax and more accepting hehe...

here's example of may-dec celebrity couples....

1 ---------> micheal douglas and catherine zeta jones (age difference = 25 yrs) still married

2 ---------> celine dion and rene angelil (age difference = 26 yrs) still married

3 ---------> ashton kutcher and demi moore (age difference = 15 yrs) still married

4 ---------> tom cruise and katie holmes (age difference = 16 yrs) still married

5 ---------> afen and you-know-who (age difference = +- yrs) =.=
(no pic...hehe)

edinburgh....ed-in-bu-ra...me?? 100000000% shy...

me and my partner...well, im sure u can guess who he is...hehe...

on saturday, we talked for about 4 hrs...

i told him that one of my friend had their engagement photoshoot in Edinburgh...and his reaction was:

me: edinburgh (i pronounced it edinb-u-r-k...)
him: ????
me: edinb-u-r-k...
him: oooooo u mean edinburgh (he pronounced it ed-in-bu-ra...)
me: ooooo (red face) ed-in-bu-ra (with lower volume possible..)
him: ed-in-bu-ra....hehehe say it...ed-in-bu-ra...(with devilish laugh...) now is your turn to learn...

we ended up laughing...but me?? OMG....padan muka..why??

before this, i used to laugh when he pronounce kuala lumpur, sabah, kota kinabalu, manukan, borneo, etc...coz its sounds funny when he pronounced it...and i have to say it slowly ko-ta ki-na-ba-lu...but he said kkooo-ttaaaa kkkiii-nnaa-bbaaa-lu (he pronounced the lu faster than the rest)...

it sounds funny, i can laugh...

but now....i pronounced the word wrongly...and his turn to laugh at me...ahahhahaha

well...to be positive, i dont think im the one on earth pronounce edinburgh, ed-in-bu-rk...im pretty sure there are others out there pronounced it like me...but since, he taught me how to pronounce it in Scots way then im happy that im right...hehe

to be negative, OMG...im still shy...damn shy....totally shy...

* a lesson to be taken by me: do not laugh at people who cant pronounced a word perfectly....tgk apa jd dgn sy, padan muka...lol

why now????

knpa bru skrg ko mau sy blik???

slma ni aku sdh bg ko pluang...aku siap tnya lg if ko mau kita blik mcm dlu...

tp ko nemau...

fine, aku trima ja...e2 kputusan ko...

tp bila aku da ada org len, sna la jua ko mau aku blik dgn ko...

pluang yg aku bg n ko sia2kn tu knapa???

ko mgaku ko bodoh n ko myesal tp da terlalu lewat...

aku da ada org len...

tlng la jan cuci fikiran sy dgn fikiran negatif ko...

tlng jan buruk2kn org len coz dri sendri pun x perfect..

if ko mc suka, sy x kesa..bkn sy x pduli tp apa yg sy blh bt??

sy bkn ats pgar mau pilih sepa...sy sdh bt pilihan...

mcm yg ko pena ckp dgn sy "if kita ada jodoh, nda ke mn jua tu..."

so if kita ada jodoh, nda ke mn jua tu...

sy nemau bg ko hrpn...n sy nemau elak ko...

so bt msa skrg, kta jd kwn dlu k...

*kena bt entri bm coz c kawan sorg tu kn nda fhm b.m...kesian dia...

The Notebook...

Do you know how much i love The Notebook???
well...im telling u now...

i love it...i truly, truly love it...

this movie is the reason why i love romantic movie/story so much...

i watched it again and again...getting bored??? never...

dear stars above, can you be my eyes to search for my Noah???

dear God, i sincerely pray to let me have my own Noah...

in terms of love, he is the one i want...

i dare you to let me be your one and only.....

time: 3.15am...

date: 4th aug 2011...

mood: in love...

hehe...as i write this, im listening to adele's songs...and i wonder how many types of love i had been into...each of her songs remind me of love...my past love experience, my current love, and my future love...uuuu not to forget secret admire...well, i bet everyone have one...

"I wont let you close enough to hurt me, i wont ask you, you to just desert me, i cant give you what you think you gave me, its time to say goodbye to turning tables..." taken from Turning Tables...

---------> it reminds me of my ex-boyfriend...as the lyric says "I wont let you close enough to hurt me.." thus i left him...

"I wish I could lay down beside you when the day is done, and wake up to your face against the morning sun, but like everything I've ever known, you disappear one day, so i spend my whole life hiding my heart away..." taken from Hiding My Heart Away...

---------> well, it reminds me of my secret admire...haha...very funny you know when you actually had a secret admire whom you think you like/love...but you didn't have the guts to say because you might think that he/she is not that into you...so you just hiding your heart away...keep pretending...keep stalking...this secret admire of mine, i keep it secret from him not because i don't have the guts needed but i pretty sure that he is still in love with his ex-girlfriend so what's the point of me telling, right?? people use to say that "let your love go, if it comes back it is yours to keep"...and so i proudly let him go...not hoping for him to come back because there are plenty of guy out there for me to meet/like/love...lol...

"don't you remember? the reason you loved me before, baby, please remember me once more, when was the last time you thought of me? or have you completely erased me from your memory? i often think about where i would roam, more i do, the less i know" taken from Don't You Remember...

---------> hehe...the above lyric shows my entire feelings when i broke up with my boyfriend...he dumped me, actually...it happened years ago...and i kinda find it damn funny now...(i'm having a huge devilish laugh now....hahahaha)....well, it is normal for someone to feel that way...and it is normal for someone to finally find it funny...that's how i react when i broke up with him...asking myself why he did that as if he didn't remember the reason he loved me before...asking myself if he ever think of me...obviously, no...hehe

"However far away, I will always love you, however long I stay, I will always love you, whatever words I say, I will always love you, I will always love you" taken from Love Song..

---------> refer to someone new, someone latest, someone i call "him" and most important thing is someone i exchange "I love you" with...to that special someone (if you ever read this), i do afraid to the word 'always'...always seems permanent to me whereas there is nothing on earth that is permanent...and thus I'm afraid of losing you...

"I could make you happy, make your dreams come true, nothing that i wouldn't do, go to the ends of the earth for you, to make you feel my love" taken from Make You Feel My Love...

"You'll never know, if you never try, to forgive your past,and simply be mine, I dare you to let me be your one and only" taken form One and Only...

---------> those lyric will be for my future...if i ever find someone who is serious enough, I would dare him to let me be his one and only...hehe...and when the time comes, i would love to use the word 'always'...always make him feel my love, always love him...always...

5 persons that i love....

no.1 ---------> myself....well, i have to love myself more than i love anyone...this is my only self and this is my only live so it is my responsible to love every bit of me...i love u myself...

no.2 ---------> my parents...i live because of them...they give me life...they give me everything...i love u mom, n i love u dad...

no.3 ---------> my family....my sisters, my bros-in-law, my nieces, my nephews....i love them...they make my day more cheerful and more meaningful...with lots of characters, we can laugh all day....

no.4 ---------> my friends...when you are away from your family, your friends can be the closest family you will have...even if you are close with your family, your friends will be the one you find when you want to share things especially your love live, your dirty little secrets, etc..hehe

no.5 ---------> __________....this one is special...i let it blank and empty because i am waiting for someone that i will call The One to be my husband...im not sure who he is...so i have no name...eventhough i love someone but it doesnt mean that he is The One...yet...hehe

wedding dress...:D

my besfriend asked me "afen, how about your wedding dress??"

to be honest to her...i was totally forgot about this whole wedding thing...

coz i have other thing to think about...sorry dear...

since my bff asked me, here i am to share couple of thoughts on my future wedding dress...

(but i have to lose tons of pounds to be perfectly fit like the models...hehe...)

wedding dress characteristics:

a) white....a must

b) chiffon...

c) lace...

d) sexy bareback...

e) not princess-like...hate it...

above pic - when the time comes, definitely be the one...

but have to add lace to be more me...

first photo + lace = above photo...

bareback...lurve it...

n must have...:D

Lacey detail is a must...

gorgeous n sexy...

one of my wedding photo will be exactly like this...

hehe..

even without a bareback, a V-back is damn gorgeous...

full lace with belt?? OMG...

i love the above pic before the first photo...

kinda simple but really shows the simple-me...

this dress is pretty but honestly i hate it..

i dont like the A-line wedding dress...

i want to walk freely...without any heavy burden below...

i know it is not that heavy but i just dont like it being huge...

# but for my scottish wedding, 5 dress codes:

a) sleeveless

b) train

c) veil

d) tiara

e) fresh bouquet

so, i think my dream dresses above will suitable with my scottish wedding...hehe...eventho i dont like to wear a tiara but if it is a must then i will consider it then...

# ffuuhh choosing wedding dress is not an easy task...even searching the right dress online is hard enough for me...i can imagine those who already married having their hard time choosing their own wedding dress from bridal shop to another bridal shop...

# well, 2 important things i found when choosing a wedding dress are:

a) the dress itself - its your wedding, your life time wedding, choose your dress that really shows who u r, 

b) money - well, u can either buy it or rent it...for me, i want to buy it rather than rent it...so choose your price accordingly...dont be over budget...

a friend...a jealousy...a hate...

i have a 'cool' friend..who has a 'cool' attitude...n has a 'cool' mouth...

i assumed that she is one of my closest friend, who knows a lot about me...

so, i shared my love's story to her...

i dont usually shared my love's story to her...ever since we had this conversation last year...

her: afen, i want to tell u something...im happy...so i hope u r happy with me too...

me: u r my friend, so of coz i will be happy with u if u r happy...im so excited...so tell me...

her: well, my bf is a pure Singaporean...

me: really??? woow....congratulations my friend...im so happy with u...so tell me more...

her: hehe thanks afen...i knew u will be happy...even if ur future bf is sabahan...

me: huh?? what do u mean even if my future bf is sabahan??

her: well, u know me right...i dont want to have a bf/fiance/husband from sabah....its ssooo euw...i want someone different...but it suits u tho...not me...

me: hehe i wont mind at all if my future bf/fiance/husband comes from sabah...as long as we're in love then we're ok...

her: hehe thats why it suits u...but not me...

we talked about her current relationship for about an hour...the way she talks, really annoys me...i cant accept when she said that sabahan guy is so euw, she dont want any of them...but dont she remember that her father and brother are pure sabahan too?? well, she's been in singapore since 2009 (i guess) and she'd already changed...she forgot where she comes from...if she is living farther than that, then i guess she will be forgetting malaysia as well...but she is my friend so whatever she is, i can still accept her...

then, we chat on monday...for catching up...we r soo damn happy at first...she is still with the singaporean guy..they r so madly deeply in love...

then, she asked me if i have a bf or not...at first i dont want to tell her...so i denied...but she keeps on asking...n telling me how beautiful love is...then, i told her about my gra geal mo chroi...and here is her reaction...

her: omg....i cant believe it...from scotland??

me: yeah...from scotland...

her: what??? do u want to be an english whore now???

me: english whore???!!!! watch what you're typing my friend...
her: hey, i mean it...u r an english whore now...

me: stop joking ok...

her: afen, im not joking here...u r a slut...

me: dont be such a shit...i am not an english whore n i am not a slut...what makes u think that??

her: what else a malaysian woman wants from an english guy??? his money...

me: i had never asked money from him before...

her: dont be ridiculous afen...i know u...u will never suits him...only sabahan guy will...u just want his money...n u just want to relocate to scotland...euw...i dont wanna have a friend like u...english whore...

then she sign off...

30 mins later, im still blur...im not sure what had happened to her...im so pissed when she called me an english whore...

is it my fault that i fall in love with an english guy??

am i an english whore?? 

i told my gra geal mo chroi...and this is his reaction...

my gra geal mo chroi: ur friend has never spoke or met me before...and now she judges me...judges u...judges us...loving u is more important than sex and money...im sorry for my next words, but your friend has a mouth fully loaded with shit...she's jealous with u...

me: but she is my friend...

my gra geal mo chroi: i know...now she reveals her true self...and that true self of hers will be hers forever...she will never changed...

me: i know she is bitchy sometimes, but i still accept her bcoz she is my friend...

my gra geal mo chroi: r u a slow learner??

well...im not a slow learner...but i do believe in second chance...but, i did gave her many chances before...but calling me an english whore?? thats unacceptable n unforgivable...

# to my dear friend, u should accept who am i with...just bcoz u have a singaporean lover doesnt mean u r on top of others n u can say negative things to ur friends...i dont have any intention to beat u in terms of who has a non-sabahan bf...when love comes, even hell can meet heaven and so is scotland n sabah...btw, dont forget where u come from coz u have ur family there knowing u, waiting u, missing u n loving u...u have to throw away your euw attitude...i may be ur friend in mere future...but i wont be the same...thanks to u...cheers...

scottish rings for scottish wedding....

wedding....wedding...wedding...

im sorry if u r bored...but im here to tell u every details of my wedding...well, my wedding actually will be around 2@4 yrs from now...

my gra geal mo chroi said, i have to finish my study first before moving in to aberdeen...

as u know, i do this for my very best friend....so friend here's what my rings will be...

3 type of rings - engagement ring, wedding ring, and traditional scottish rings...

above pic - engagement ring...not exactly like that..prefer a simple ring for engagement..but purple is a must...

above pic - wedding ring...no silver coz i allergic to it...no golden gold coz i hate it...so white gold it is...with a complex pattern...

in scottish wedding tradition, there will be three different rings for different occasions...but it all depends on the couple whether to follow the traditions or not...

1st ring is the fede ring...contained decoratively inscribed sentiment - e.g Gra Anois Go Deo (love, now and forever), given as engagement rings..

2nd ring - claddagh ring..have a cut in the form of two clasped hands, symbolizing trust..kept as family heirlooms, and passed from mother to daughter...used as betrothal and wedding ring..

3rd rings - celtic knot wedding ring..will be used as wedding ring...every ring has its own unique features with its own meaning...photo below shows the trinity knot (an individual strand and wraps in into and onto itself) symbolized the way in which three separate essences (The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit) vitally interconnected..it also symbolize the weaving together of two lives...

# for me, the first two rings are the most important...the scottish rings?? well it depends on my gra geal mo chroi...if he wants us to follow the scottish tradition, then i will have all the three rings...but im surely, we didnt...why?? if we did follow the tradition then he will wear kilt on our wedding day...btw, kilt is a BIG NO-NO for him...hehe..

# if only i marry that scottish man...cheers...:)

betul ka aku??

September 19 birthday interpretation...

- has a willingness...

- prepared to take risks in life...

- successful in any business especially if it's connects with travel and the travel industry...

- calm self-reliance...

- unlikely to bow down and lose way under undue pressure...

- endowed with inherent understanding and appreciation even the most complex problems/situation can be overcome, when given the time and dealt in the most appropriate manner...

- confident in your own ability to be able to deal with any matter/challenge that you may encounter in life...

- have a fascinating charm that intrigues people (able to smooth away the rough edges in order to arrive at uncluttered solutions)...

- able to ironing our problems, tidying things up, streamlining, and refining all forms of matters/undertakings...

- will face numerous occasions throughout your life, where you will have to make a choice between that occasions with your personal relationship...

- will experience a number of tumultuous relationship...

- have strong appreciation for education and not only for the retention of knowledge, but also that of adding thereto your own thoughts, insights and opinions...

- have strong interest in things that are beautiful to the eye...

- critical minds...

- perfectionist...

- difficult to satisfy...

can i trust this???

no no no that is a wrong question...

the right question is...

is this me???

have willingness n prepare to take risk - i am...

i have taken a lot of risks in my life...

including escape exam...who dares to escape exam??? i do...

i did it for the sake of nz...

business in travel - not sure...

calm self-reliance - ME is the biggest motivator, so i guess...yeah...

the next 3 - im not sure...

fascinating charm - hehe, i really like it (if any..)

ironing up problem etc - maybe yes maybe not...but who on earth cant ironing their own prob, right??

1st red - omg...how am i gonna handle this when it comes??

well, kinda face it now...

family vs my lover...is this in???

obviously...i cant choose....now...

maybe later...hehe

2nd red - haish...no wonder i experienced bad relationships...

september 19...is it really u the reason why it all happened??

strong appreciation, interest - hehe who doesnt???

i appreciate education...

n i do interest in beautiful things...

hehe...

critical minds - omg...no wonder, i always have ifs and buts inside my mind...

perfectionist - nobody's perfect, so i guess no...

difficult to satisfy - still, nobody's perfect, so i guess no...

if i say yes, then i'll also a perfectionist, in which im not...

but if i do, then let it be my dirty lil secret...hehe

# ffffuuuuuhhhh.........it is hard to be me.....but up until now, im fine with me...totally fine...eventho i have ups and downs (thanks to september 19), i have ME (my motivator)...n surely i will be okay for the rest of my life...my love, accept who i am, k...:)

top 3 words women use...

i used to say these words to my xbf...n some words i used to my gra geal mo chroi...

1) Fine: usually women use 'fine' to end an argument...and that's true..i used it a lot when i was still with my x...i do mean for him to shut up...but sometimes he keep on asking/talking/arguing n it totally pissed me of..

2) hehe this next words - 5 minutes, totally unfair to man...here's why...

boy:  it's been 5 minutes...are u ready yet??
girl: ok...5 more minutes...
(another 5 minutes...)
boy: are u ready yet??
girl: almost...5 minutes...

what we women really mean is 30 minutes...hehe...we wanna get dressed, look good for u boy...hehe
but the unfair part is...

girl: will u help me throw away those garbage??
boy: ok..(eyes on telly...)...5 minutes...
(after 5 minutes)
girl: throw away those garbage now!!!!!
boy: ok...ok...

pity u boy...

3) last nite, my gra geal mo chroi called me...he asked me something and i answered nothing...well, nothing is the next word...

me: it's nothing...trust me...
my gra geal mo chroi: nothing??? are u sure??? nothing means something, right??...so tell me whats bothering u...
me: trust me...nothing is nothing, ok...
my gra geal mo chroi: ok...

well, i do mean something...but i feel not telling...so hun, im sorry...cheers...hehe

[HD] Breathless - Shayne Ward

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

Chorus

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

# this song reminds me of him...

you...

Long Distance Relationship.

i miss u & i love u...

nak tanya blh??

i just wanna ask,

if korg kena suru pilih atr:

a) orang yg suka kmu, tp kmu x brapa suka @ blm suka sgt

b) orang yg kmu suka, tp x brapa suka kmu @ blm suka kmu sgt

mn kmu pilih??

hehe aku tau punya ada yg akn jwb 'hhmmm cri org len la'...

tp aku nemau jwpn 2...

plh atr a @ b ja...

bagi aku kan, aku pilih a kot...

biar la org ckp "ko tipu diri ko sendri.."

tp positifnya someday aku akn suka dia kn...

org selalu ckp

'cinta yg agung (cewah) adalah bila kmu lgsg nada expect apa2.."

eya meh??

if btul mcm 2 tpaksa la pilih b kn...

coz cinta agung kn nada expect pa2 dr tu org...

so jan expect dia akn suka kita blik...

aduina sadisnya...

nemau aku mcm 2...

if aku pilih b pun aku akn ttp expect dia akn suka sy blik (knn...)

tp kdg2 manusia ni ada yg risk-taker ada yg x...

terpulang dgn individu...

so pilihan n reason kmu apa pla???

so a or b???

Gra Geal Mo Chroi....

gra geal mo chroi (irish) means love of my heart...

cewah...jiwang la pula kn...

well, if my mom c this, she will be pissed...

why??

she actually dislike my gra geal mo chroi...

her reasons:

a) he lives in scotland...

b) he is pure english...

c) not malaysian...

d) a contractor without higher education...

im not sure what to do next...

so, i just told my mom he is only my friend...

eventho he is more than that...

scottish wedding???

from best Scottish wedding magazine..

is this what my future Scottish wedding look like??? ahaks...maybe...maybe not...hehe :)
we'll see...
but obviously, not the kilt (he says...'no no')