i dare you to let me be your one and only.....

time: 3.15am...

date: 4th aug 2011...

mood: in love...

hehe...as i write this, im listening to adele's songs...and i wonder how many types of love i had been into...each of her songs remind me of love...my past love experience, my current love, and my future love...uuuu not to forget secret admire...well, i bet everyone have one...

"I wont let you close enough to hurt me, i wont ask you, you to just desert me, i cant give you what you think you gave me, its time to say goodbye to turning tables..." taken from Turning Tables...

---------> it reminds me of my ex-boyfriend...as the lyric says "I wont let you close enough to hurt me.." thus i left him...

"I wish I could lay down beside you when the day is done, and wake up to your face against the morning sun, but like everything I've ever known, you disappear one day, so i spend my whole life hiding my heart away..." taken from Hiding My Heart Away...

---------> well, it reminds me of my secret admire...haha...very funny you know when you actually had a secret admire whom you think you like/love...but you didn't have the guts to say because you might think that he/she is not that into you...so you just hiding your heart away...keep pretending...keep stalking...this secret admire of mine, i keep it secret from him not because i don't have the guts needed but i pretty sure that he is still in love with his ex-girlfriend so what's the point of me telling, right?? people use to say that "let your love go, if it comes back it is yours to keep"...and so i proudly let him go...not hoping for him to come back because there are plenty of guy out there for me to meet/like/love...lol...

"don't you remember? the reason you loved me before, baby, please remember me once more, when was the last time you thought of me? or have you completely erased me from your memory? i often think about where i would roam, more i do, the less i know" taken from Don't You Remember...

---------> hehe...the above lyric shows my entire feelings when i broke up with my boyfriend...he dumped me, actually...it happened years ago...and i kinda find it damn funny now...(i'm having a huge devilish laugh now....hahahaha)....well, it is normal for someone to feel that way...and it is normal for someone to finally find it funny...that's how i react when i broke up with him...asking myself why he did that as if he didn't remember the reason he loved me before...asking myself if he ever think of me...obviously, no...hehe

"However far away, I will always love you, however long I stay, I will always love you, whatever words I say, I will always love you, I will always love you" taken from Love Song..

---------> refer to someone new, someone latest, someone i call "him" and most important thing is someone i exchange "I love you" with...to that special someone (if you ever read this), i do afraid to the word 'always'...always seems permanent to me whereas there is nothing on earth that is permanent...and thus I'm afraid of losing you...

"I could make you happy, make your dreams come true, nothing that i wouldn't do, go to the ends of the earth for you, to make you feel my love" taken from Make You Feel My Love...

"You'll never know, if you never try, to forgive your past,and simply be mine, I dare you to let me be your one and only" taken form One and Only...

---------> those lyric will be for my future...if i ever find someone who is serious enough, I would dare him to let me be his one and only...hehe...and when the time comes, i would love to use the word 'always'...always make him feel my love, always love him...always...