sy paling x suka if sy suddenly tfikir mcm ni...i cant sleep n sy blh nangis...
klu sudah jd mcm ni kn, knfm sy akn tell myself to not think more bout it or i force myself to forget it or i switch on my laptop n pretend to watch movie or hear songs loudly...
bkn sbb sy takut mau mati...tp mati kn benda paling confirm dlm dunia...so no need to be afraid of, right...
tp, yg bt sy x ska is i know that there is someone in family that will pass away...n i dont know how i know this, that i cant tell anybody about it before it really happened...
sy tau some of u kn knfm la ba pena rasa/fikir mcm ni kn..bad feelings bout something...
but, i realized this since i was a kid...back in tawau when i was 7@8 yrs old...tp waktu tu sy x nangis la coz budak2 otak mc d lutut...mn la fkir benda len kcuali main main n main...
waktu tu sy fikir psl mati...n i was so afraid...then a few days later, my dad's bestfriend kn pass away...
at first, sy x la pduli lgsg....tp bla sdh bsar2 sdh kn, makin mjadi ni...byk sdh org yg pass away after each kejadian...my uncles, my aunties, my cousins...
recently, last week...it happened again...then my aunty pass away the next day...
few yrs ago, my mama tua (my mom's sister) punya cucu kn tunang ba di tawau...so kmi decided mau konvoi la ni gna kreta from kk to tawau...my parents dorg mau p...sy x mau lgsg ikt dorg p tawau coz bkn jua close sgt kn sy dgn my own cousins semua...tp nta sepa yg send msg p otak sy n bgtau sy utk join konvoi tu to save my parents...meaning, if sy follow them, then my mom n my dad will safe...tp kmi x sma kreta...my dad len, my mom len, n sy len...tp sy x risau, as long as sy ikt, then dorg akn slamat...the 2nd reason why i join is that person also told me that there will be an accident...sume kreta ada possibility to be in that accident minus the 3 cars who brought my mom, my dad n i...so, left 2 cars...50-50 chance la dorg...so on the way back kn, btul2 la ada accident, dorg masuk parit...sume slamat la, cuma lebam2 n kemik skit ja kreta...
bkn bad things ja la yg sy blh tau...any other things pun...contoh, msa sy d mtrk kn, sy mandi...tba2 tfikir sony ericsson...punya sy pelik...nta knapa tba2 sy tfikir psl tu..tp mlmnya, my roomate blik dr jmpa org...org yg dia jmpa tu bg dia hp sony...
msa exam spm...paper english...days before the exam kn tba2 sy kna bgtau psl apa yg kluar part literature...jd sy pun bca tu ja la...coz sy trust my own instinct...msa exam day, btul2 kluar...sy pun happy la coz sy sdh hafal hehe...tp part exam ni sy sure bkn sy sorg ja pena org len pun...hahaha
apa2 pun, sy still rsa takut if benda mati tu dtang lg...coz sy tau what will come next...cma sepa ja yg sy x tau...in case sy huish lg la aku tkt...
