sabar ku ada had lah wei!!!!!

missing somebody....Call --->>> i called but nobody picks up, and after the n-th call, i ended up with voicemail because the person switched off the phone...

wanna meet up....Invite --->>> most of the invitations were cancelled due to the person's working schedule...

wanna be understood...Explain --->>> explained carefully what i love and what i hate...and always ended up with "i know and im sorry"...and it continues till countless pages (if only i can write it all down)...

have questions...Ask --->>> since calls are being ignored, i just hope that the texts are read...so i text my question...the answer i get is nothing...checked my phone if it is in silent mode, but it's not...and im still waiting...

dont like something...say it --->>> i do say if i dislike something...and the reaction i get is anger...try to explain but no matter how much water i put onto the fire, its still FIRE, i wish it cools to FiRe or fire or completely fire...but, damn shiall...useless...

like something...state it --->>> yeah this is the one that has no problem...hhhmmm second thought, yes, but it all minor..

want something...ask for it --->>> cried a lot with this part...i ask for understanding, and everytime i will get the silent and simply said "totally forgot"....

love someone...tell it --->>> i love you is the only thing that binds us now...

sometimes we didn't complicate our life...

we call

we invite

we explain

we ask

we say

we state

we tell

but most important thing is - We Hope

we hope he/she answered the phone

we hope that he/she will come and meet us

we hope that he/she understand us after we explained

we hope that we get what we asked for

we hope that he/she remembers our likes and dislikes

we hope that he/she knows that we love them

some person will find that it is not easy for them to initiate the first move...because that person are afraid of what comes next...

but for me, i have/must take the first step...because i need answer...WHY??? 

if your reason is working, then tell me that you are working...you asked me to wait, and i said yes, but you keep me waiting while you fast asleep...is that fair?...i called you, i texted you, full with hopes that you will answer it all, and when i finally get to you, you simply said sorry without any explanation...i dont think sorry is the answer for all my questions...i wonder how hard it is for you to answer my simplest question on earth "have you done with your work?"....or is it my fault too that i put too much hope on you, on us?? if this is the first time, i will be patiently angelic towards you...but this is your i-cant-calculate-it-with-my-fingers-and-toes-anymore time...so where will my patience go? meet the angel? or meet the satan? unfortunately it all scattered to million pieces...and i dont know where it all go...i dont know what to do now...i really dont know what to do now...will i collect the pieces and glue it together? will the 'i love you' still bind us? and if all the pieces are glued, will it be normal? 

whatever i chose to do next, im pretty sure it is not a pristine path...i am tired playing with his game...too tired that it make my eyes sandy...thanks to you...