unfriend je la...

dear friend,

i knew you for a couple of months now...we've met before...we're so close (as friend)...we talked for hours...we chatted for hours...but suddenly you changed...you said that we are matured enough...but what makes you changed then?? just tell me what your reason is...besides, we are friend not lover...if you think that i love you then you are wrong...please don't make any assumption...i do love you, but i love you as a friend...and i do love you as a brother i wish i have...i know i'm young and naive...and if that's makes you being unfriendly to me, then tell me...tell me everything...if you think it might hurt me, then you are wrong...your silence is hurting me more than your explanation...

oh god, why am i doing this?? i am sure he will never read this...whenever i sign in y.m in which he is online, he will immediately sign off...it's too obvious, my dear friend...you are trying to run away from me...at first, i thought that you are busy...but you keep on doing it...are you still busy?? i don't think so, my dear friend...i am positively sure that you are running away...

dear friend, you know i am not a negative thinker...i will always be a positive thinker even in a hardest situation...thus, i won't think that you are running away instead i will think that you are busy...i still remembered  you said to me once "even if i busy i will make time for you and i will tell you if i'm busy"...and so i guess, your time for me is not yet around the corner...do your work and make it work...

for our facebook, just unfriend me if you find me annoying...even if you aren't find me annoying, then unfriend me if you don't want to be my friend...i dare you to do it...why??? because i don't want you to keep on running away from me...its your facebook profile, you own it, don't be scared of your own belonging...i dare you to unfriend me, if it makes you happy...if you are happy, then i will be happy for you...

you know what friend, i sometimes, search for our conversations in y.m...i read it again and again...never get bored...and i still smiling here and there...the way we tease each other...calling each other with the mc's names...honestly friend, i miss your brotherly advice...and i totally missing you...

people say "let it go, if it comes back, it is yours to keep..."...can i use it in our friendship?? i am letting him go now...i am merely a ghost now...if only i can put that quote in our situation now, then i will letting him go with a hope that he will be friendly again...since i'm letting him go, i appear permanently offline to him, and every post i posted i will hide it from him...sound so damn stupid and childish...but i cant click the unfriend button...i cant...i cant...i cant...damn i cant do it...

so dear friend, whatever makes you happy, i absolutely happy for you...unconditionally happy for you...keep on running away from me or unfriend me, just do it my dear friend...once you become my friend, you will forever be my friend...i pray for your happiness and health...and i wish you can read this...

sincerely,
crying afen....xoxo :(