aku mc ska dia....

td chat dgn besfren...dia tanya "fen, pena ka ko rsa ko x mampu mau bckp bla bdepan dgn llki yg ko ska?? pena ka ko rsa ko ska tp ko x mampu mau ckp?? pena ka ko rsa dri ko hnya mampu melihat??"

dlm hati aku x mau jwb...sbb solan2 dia sume yg jiwang2...n aku waktu tu not in jiwang mode...if aku jwb pena sure la dia akn tnya lbh...if aku x jwb aku rsa kesian pla dgn dia...da la kmi ni jarang chat coz both busy like hell...once chat bgni pla solan dia...aduh....nazak....mati la...

so.....

aku pun jwb la..."pena...smpi skrg..."

nsib ko la fen...huhu...coz dia pun tnya lbh2...n dia pun mluahkn prasaan dia...kesian aku dgn dia...

hehe aku pun pena la jua mcm tu tp x la parah mcm kwn ku ni...ala besa la...crush...secret admire...normal kn...

pengakuan terhebat hjg thun ni - aku mc ska dia.....

tp, aku hnya ska dia sbgai kwn...aku rindu msa kmi bkwn dlu...skrg pun kmi still bkwn tp sejuk sdh...ada la tu  hal yg jd...myesal pun x gna...

i was in a rush ba back then...skit lg ni...so our time that we spent together not fabulous as our dream...i had planned something for him...a surprise actually, but ended up with my friends...haha...but the 31hrs that we spent totally rock my memory box..i dun knw what my future will be...but it was my first 31hrs with him n i dun wan to lie that i do hope that the hrs increase to more days, more weeks, more months n even more years...n i do wan to see more of him...------->> but it was back then...

now....------->> i am free from any temps i encountered  - to chat, to view, etc...

in between ---->> i loosen the feeling bit by bit everyday...but keep the memory fresh...

so, dear bestie, i understand ur feeling, i was in ur position months ago...im sure it will be hard for u...but trust me, u can...just let the feelings go by controlling yourself day by day...if he is yours to keep, then he will come to u 1 day....i am here for u, just talk to me or anyone else if the urge to drink his words from chatbox is killing  u...so dear friend, cheers...love u...:)