my 24th christmas...

i am 23 yrs old...n yesterday was my 24th Christmas...

i had experienced 24 Christmases so far...some of it i have no memories...while some i had a few memories but mixed up with other christmas, and fresh memories like yesterday's christmas and last year's christmas...

yesterday - i cant believe that it was my 24th christmas...im not sure why suddenly i counted how many christmases i had...

and the most scary question was - is this christmas will be my last christmas??

for sure, i have no answer for that...

and for sure, i hope that this is not my last christmas on earth...

honestly, i was picturing how my family will be without me...i became an observer yesterday...i observed my whole family yesterday on how they handle our christmas...bravo bravo...they were so damn good...hehe...even without me they will rock the day...

this is not suicidal...haha...and i am not dying...

i just thought that if i further my study away...i will have no chance whatsoever to celebrate christmas with my lovely family...only if i have money to buy return flight tickets...hehe

i dont know what my 25th christmas will be..i will be glad, if i have the chance to celebrate it with my whole family...but i will be insanely glad, if i have the chance to celebrate christmas with or without my family...that represent me alive...hehe

its another year ahead...and its already a day passed...Merry Christmas, Reader...

sincerely,
afen...

p/s: hows ur nth christmas?? is it great?? is it awesome?? omg fabulous?? U Rawk!! hehe