guys...

Im fat…im not pretty…n worse of all I wear a spec…

I do love reading…heavy reading I guess…I have Emily Bronte’s n Shakespeare’s books… John Gray’s, 

Love Letters of Famous Men n Women…etc…n I do love magazines (who doesn’t, right…) – Cleo is my most fav mag…

What else…hhhmmmm….

Kinda slow in action…but honestly, it wasn’t slow but I was thinking…

Totally a simple girl…

Im not wearing any make-up except my cherry lip balm…

Before I hate wearing jeans…

But 2 yrs ago…

I started to wear lens…from purple to green…from green to grey…n finally I love the hazel…

I straightened my hair daily before going to lectures…

I now wear jeans n jeggings…

I put some make-up on…n I really love thick black eyeliner…but still I wear my cherry lip balm…n no lipstick…

My style still the same – v-neck or deep v-neck…purple, black, red…n yet girlish…n I lurve wedges…

People starts noticing me…haha obviously not bcoz im pretty but they noticed the new me without my purple spec…they say that is the original me…ok…

Then…

I met 3 incredible guys…

Different stories, different situation, different time…

Guy #1…

(Obviously, name is confidential…)

I knew him through a friend of mine…

He texted me…wanna be my friend…he called me…then we went out for lunch…

I wore the usual me…usual me is me with spec…

Then I went back to my hostel…

A week later, received no news bout him…

I changed my fb profile photo…me without spec n a lil bit of makeup…

He called…he said “wow u r soo different…”…then we went out for another lunch date…

This time I wear my lens…

He admit that he has a long-distance-relationship gf…

But he was way too 18sx for me…

Then we lost contact…

Guy #2

I also knew him through a friend of mine…

But with him, im totally the new me…

We went out to a bar with a few friends of ours…I will not going to any bar alone with a guy…

At first, we usually text or call…then when we’re busy, we’re forgetting each other…

1 day, he asked me out to a bar…but I feel really not going…

N he said he really wanted to go out somewhere that nite coz he had a fight with his gf…

Then I said “sorry, bring ur gf la…im not in the ‘bar’ mode…”

Then we lost contact again…

Same things happened twice…n I still don’t wanna go out with someone else’s bf…

Last month, he called me asking me to go out with him…but I refused to go…

He said he broke up with his gf…n he wished that if we went out together that time, we will be steady…

And still “Sorry, im truly busy this month…”

Guy #3

Again, I knew this guy through my best friend…

He called me early in d morning…but im still under my duvet…

He keeps on calling…n finally I answered…

We talked for hours, I guess…

U know what I knew about him???

Surprised…surprised…surprised…

He had an affair while he was engaged to a girl, the ‘affair’ pregnant, they get married, and they have a son…the mom left the husband n the baby, n they still married…

I like the way he tells me the truth before we went out together…

Hehe…we went out for lunch…not a date…he’s nice…but not my type…

# my best friend said that im still young to feel the real love, and as a teenagers we have a long way to go to find our soulmate…I do agree that im young, im a teen, n im not yet feel the real love…I am turning 23 this sept…those 3 guys taught me to be matured…matured enough to know types of man that I may not supposed to fall into...

# d first guy…he has a gf – separated by distance…eventhough his gf will not know… but should I or should I not be with him??? Obviously I should not..im not a player n I respect female…besides, he is more attracted to beautiful woman…the more gorgeous u r the more open his eyes will be…hehe…but I want someone who can accept the ugly me n not just the nicer me…

#d 2^nd guy…he’s nice, actually…but a rebound guy??? No-no…he will using me to forget his gf…but once his gf wants him back, what will happen to me??? another heartbroken girl??? Aiya tak nak la…

# d 3^rd guy…he’s ok…he’s married…he said he don’t love his wife…but married guy with a nearly broken family??? I don’t think so…if im the guy, I would totally improve my relationship with my wife to make it works for the sake of my kid n not focusing on finding someone to be my 2^nd wife…

# who said 22 is not matured enough??? If im not matured then I might fall for the 3^rd guy since he has his own business n my future will be more secure than the other guys…

# if I love someone bcoz of what they can give me, that’s not love…that is selfishness…

# hehe now im single for months now…I’ll rock my single-hood with my own party rock anthem where everyone is shuffling…hehe