aku mc ska dia....

td chat dgn besfren...dia tanya "fen, pena ka ko rsa ko x mampu mau bckp bla bdepan dgn llki yg ko ska?? pena ka ko rsa ko ska tp ko x mampu mau ckp?? pena ka ko rsa dri ko hnya mampu melihat??"

dlm hati aku x mau jwb...sbb solan2 dia sume yg jiwang2...n aku waktu tu not in jiwang mode...if aku jwb pena sure la dia akn tnya lbh...if aku x jwb aku rsa kesian pla dgn dia...da la kmi ni jarang chat coz both busy like hell...once chat bgni pla solan dia...aduh....nazak....mati la...

so.....

aku pun jwb la..."pena...smpi skrg..."

nsib ko la fen...huhu...coz dia pun tnya lbh2...n dia pun mluahkn prasaan dia...kesian aku dgn dia...

hehe aku pun pena la jua mcm tu tp x la parah mcm kwn ku ni...ala besa la...crush...secret admire...normal kn...

pengakuan terhebat hjg thun ni - aku mc ska dia.....

tp, aku hnya ska dia sbgai kwn...aku rindu msa kmi bkwn dlu...skrg pun kmi still bkwn tp sejuk sdh...ada la tu  hal yg jd...myesal pun x gna...

i was in a rush ba back then...skit lg ni...so our time that we spent together not fabulous as our dream...i had planned something for him...a surprise actually, but ended up with my friends...haha...but the 31hrs that we spent totally rock my memory box..i dun knw what my future will be...but it was my first 31hrs with him n i dun wan to lie that i do hope that the hrs increase to more days, more weeks, more months n even more years...n i do wan to see more of him...------->> but it was back then...

now....------->> i am free from any temps i encountered  - to chat, to view, etc...

in between ---->> i loosen the feeling bit by bit everyday...but keep the memory fresh...

so, dear bestie, i understand ur feeling, i was in ur position months ago...im sure it will be hard for u...but trust me, u can...just let the feelings go by controlling yourself day by day...if he is yours to keep, then he will come to u 1 day....i am here for u, just talk to me or anyone else if the urge to drink his words from chatbox is killing  u...so dear friend, cheers...love u...:)

huh rakyat sabah tertindas???

bru2 ni sy fly p kl...teman my sis blajar kek...pavlova damn sedap...parent ku yg x suka heavy cakes pun blh tsuka ni kek ah...mmg damn la sedapnya...p la kmu try ah...:)

so msa kmi ni touchdown kk...ikt air asia so kna bratur gila pjg la utk p cek ic/passport sgala...ada sorg llki ni...dia melayu dr smenanjung...

dia x sabar mau kluar, aku pun x sbar mau kluar mau mkn kek yg kmi simpan d cargo...

dijadikan crita...blh2 dia ckp...

llki: "byknya org smenanjung dtg sbh...tp kesian rakyatnya tertindas...x ramai dtg kl..."

kta x ramai dtg kl maksudnya kta tertindas ka??

aku dtg kl...wpn utk 4D3N...tertindas ka aku??

aku yg xtau @ llki tu bangang??

huh?? skandal dgn laki org???

ok geng, bhabuk da blog aku...mau kc bersih la dlu ni...hehe

nak tnya apa korg rsa bla ada ppuan bskandal dgn laki org???

mestilah ba x bgus kn, apa la knn prasaan bininya n anaknya kn...

djadikn crita....aku ada sorg kwn nmanya 'F' (bukan nama sebenar)...ada sorg kwn dia ni kenalkn dia dgn sorg llki nama 'S' (bukan nama sebenar)...dorg bmsg n bkol for a week b4 dorg jmpa...llki 2 ada bgtau dia yg dia sdh  kwin tp cerai n punya anak lelaki...so si kawan aku ni pun pcaya la...then dorg arrange a meeting...

time meeting dorg tu sy x tau la apa jd kn...but after a few meetings kn...

tu lelaki mgaku yg dia mc lg suami org n ada 2 ank da...ank ke2 bru 5bln...sdgkn si kwn aku ni da knal llki 2 lbh dr stahun...

hhhmmmm mmg skandal...llaki tu ada mgaku jua yg dia mau dia n kwn aku ni hanya skandal ja...bla kwn ku suru llki 2 crikn dia sorg llki yg single pndi pla llaki tu ckp "xmau, nti x kwn skandal sy..."

llki tu x tinggal srumah dgn bininya...bininya tinggal jau dr dia n anak2 dorg tu llki yg jg....dorg kwin coz bininya da pregnant while llki tu da ada tunang...

sy x tau knpa c F still setia mau jd skandal dgn c S...kwn ku blh ja cri llki yg jau lbh bek n single...tp nta knapa la dia mau jua dgn c S...

kwn ku ckp dia skit ht jua bla dia tahu lelaki tu tambah anak...hehe...da bininya kn mestilah senang2 ja dia p tambah anak...if bkn bini mn la lelaki tu mau tambah anak...sot jua kwn ku ni...

dr apa yg aku tgk kn, llki tu xla hensem sgt...ok la sedap jua mata memandang...dia ada rmh sendri n bisnes sendri...so mmg tjamin la if kwin dgn dia...tp knfm la kwn ku x kwin dgn dia coz llki tu da mgaku yg dia x akn kwin 2 coz nti tdo d rmh bini no1 rindu ank bini no2...tdo rmh bini no2 nti rindu ank bini no1...

bgus la jua llki tu setia dgn bininya...tp jan la mau skandal kn...bkin pening kepala lg adala...

so sepa yg stuju dgn sy no skandal angkat tangan ya hehe....

online boutique....lai lai lai....

amanda's closet... my first ever online shop co-op with my friend amanda...

still dlm pcubaan...but so far so good...

products listed 200++...but still more to upload...

now, clothes, shoes and bags...

the shoes can be either order from the ready stock or pre-order...the rest is ready stock..

our aim for the online shop is : to be like the RM25 shops in Bukit Bintang...where all the clothes are RM25 each...but with a postage...

coming soon : baby's stuffs and plus size...

kalau blh one day sy mau buka my own boutique, with cupcake...(amanda, 2011)...

if aku ada berani...

if aku ada berani......

1) aku akan potong rambut style bob...
2) aku akan p blajar menembak...
3) aku akan p bcuti senyap2...
4) aku p clubbing sorg dri...
5) aku p marah tu lelaki yg duduk dpan sy d cinema coz kepala dia halang aku tgk muvie...

tp malangnya aku nada berani...bra ni ada...mau 1??? hahahaha gurau kio...XD

ya ampun.....

my last post - 18 sept...

n today is 12 oct....

almost a month oooo aku x update dis ZZZZzzzzZZZZ blog....

well.....101 things happened to me within that period...

all i can say is - student's life....

im glad everything seems fine now...hopefully...

cheers for me.....XD

sewa rmh luar kampus...

as the title goes, yeah aku sewa rmh coz hostel is no longer available for me...and so, i have been searching a house to rent with friends and even searched for room to rent...

i have 2 options...

a) 1Borneo apartment - share the room with a female chinese student...rent rm400...
b) uni. apartment - house rent rm650...

at first kn mau d uni. apartment (ua) tp waktu tu nada kwn mau sewa sma...even skrg pun nada...then sy plh 1B apartment...coz dekat dgn U, transport senang if sy mau blik sendri...if d ua, ada susah skit (actually byk) if mau balik...

tp mostly kn aku blm sure lg la mau stay mn coz kwn2 blm decide lg kn sewa mn...

aku mau jua yg d 1b tu tp a lil bit pricey compare yg len...tp senang mau balik dr u...

bkn tu ja yg aku fkr, aku pun tfikir jua parent aku kena byr the rent monthly lg...cmpur utilities...mknn aku...perbelanjaan peribadi n keperluan study...aduh kesiannya dorg...

aku mau p cri part time la ni lpas ni...mau jd tutor (knn)...ada ku hntr resume tp blm lg ada jwpn...part-time tutor pun ok coz gaji da pun cover all mentioned above...tp klu mama ku tau ni mati la aku kena marah d rmh...mn dia mau kc benar anaknya ni keja tym study...

apa2 pun, smoga minggu depan ku n the coming weeks will be easier for me to face...amen...