Our first month anniversary…he gave me a present...
He told me that he has another girlfriend…a 1.5 yrs old relationship…
A very unthinkable n yet a nice present, right???...
I asked him “why u didn’t tell me on the first place??? I would not be with you if u tells me about this earlier….”
And he said “I love you…I don’t wanna lose you…
I replied “u love me…u don’t wanna lose me…u love her…n u also don’t wanna lose her, right??”
And he simply said “yes…”
At that time, im not sure what im gonna do…I feel like crying but have no tears…
I regretted the moment I said I will be his friend…coz he’s not a friend I wish I have…
I regretted the moment we arrange the first meeting…coz it makes me hates the place…
I regretted the moment I said I like him…coz it’s so damn embarrassed…
I regretted the moment I texted or said I love him…coz he don’t deserve that…
But…I am not and will not regret the time I spent with him…
Bcoz I like the way I feel whenever im with him…
So what did I do next???
I fight….I fight for my love….I fight for me…and I fight for us…
This is so damn hard for me to handle…but I have to…he’s my boyfriend n I love him…
N I wondered if I ever succeed….
# To be continued…
# When u encounter with this kind of situation in your relationship, u have to ask yourself…what do you want???...what do you want???...what do you want???...if u want to be with him, then u have to fight…fight until u have him…fight until u succeed…if u want to be with him but u didn’t have the guts to fight, then u have to question yourself if u love him or not???...
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