Friday, June 17, 2011

love story part 5...finale...

He chose me - twice….

I gave him another chance – twice…

N again, he cheated on me – countless…

N again, I gave him another chance…another chance…other chances…

I always remind myself that I still love him no matter what his mistakes are....

If u think im patient, yes 75% of our time…but the rest??? Im sorry…

Im sure u knows how much it hurts when u’ve been cheated countless times and yet u still love him…

Why???

I always wondered why I did that???

But lastly I came up with my own conclusion…

“I did that bcoz I believe that the negative actions and bad decisions he made, were just the minor him…but the major him is angel…I love him…n I can accept both his major and his minor…n im hoping that he will change for good…”

Yeah…sigh….

13 months after his graduation…after countless lies came up…after countless chances I gave him…after millions of “I Love U” wishes we exchanged…n after tons of gallons of tears…

I called it QUIT…

Why???

I can’t handle it anymore…im tired of being the superwoman saving our relationship while he keeps on lying…

Real love doesn’t hurt at all…love has its own languages but pain, hurt aren’t one of them…

If only he changed, maybe im still with him…but nobody wants to be changed…except his / her free will…

He texted me, he said to me, that he will changed for good, changed for me…laugh is all I can do…he lost 
my trust…n trust should be gained not given…but he blew all of his chances…



Ever since we broke up, I sometimes think that his next gf would be sooo damn lucky bcoz he’s already changed…n im just his experiment...hehe it’s good right…at least the experiment succeed…

If love = pain, I would not dare to fall in love again…

Consider to fall in love? – Maybe…

Letting go? – Yes…

People sometimes refer those who heartbroken as “people who close their heart’s door, locked it up, n threw away the key…so that someone will find the key n open the door for them someday…”

But for me, my heart is in ‘welcome in’ policy…n never being locked…

Why??? lock-and-find-key policy is sssoooo eeeeuuuwww n ssssooooo yester-century….

But…………………in my ‘welcome in’ policy, any man can enter, b friendly to me, but when it comes to love, he must pass the test below…
  •           He must be able to accept the ugly side of me (nobody’s perfect mah…)

N after that….i might be falling in love again….maybe…eeeee tak nak….hehe…no la…I will…someday…

#Love is a friendship on fire…every couple should be able to balance friendship and romance and thus their relationship will last..my x n I still friends…we sometimes texted each other…but we r not on fire…we’re just on friendship…love supposed to end well…but mostly love ends with matrimony…but this particular love of mine is also ended up well eventhough not in a matrimony but in friendship…cheers…



 # for those who read my post from part 1 till part 5, thank u so much…J….next week another episodes bout me coming up…

8 comments:

khansyaa' al khairiyah mohd ujang said...

i dont wanna quit ^^
i'll find the strength ^^
cuz i love him gila gila punyaaaa lah.

so sad reading ur story ahh

samizul.net said...

^^,

virgo19 said...

khansyaa: i dont wanna quit at first...n even now i still questioned myself if i did it wrongly...but then, i have to...huhu :(

ABU said...

kena baca drpd awal kot dulu..:D

virgo19 said...

abu: bca la dr part 1 dlu...hehe :)

mr_mrs mikko said...

mo kna focus ni baca..
hihih

virgo19 said...

mr_mrs mikko: fokus jan tak fokus...hehe

Anonymous said...

story ko ne wat sya insaf ooh.. sya sdh wat salh dgn sesorg yg btl2 syg dgn sya..xpa, semoga story ini menjadi pengjaran wat sya utk mnjadi dewasa..sorry..